Siapa mintak sakit ni? Siapa?

petang tadi appt dgn specialist doc. ok. Doc tapi Dato'. So, called him Dato'. banyak bende dia explain plus aku tanya macam-macam pasal kejadian lepas. sinus lepas Ct Scan, ada but tak serious. X-ray, ada bronchitis. Kalau aku google bronchitis dalam wikipedia, ada related to viral infection. Mungkin dari situ lah bacteria atau virus yang menyerang buat batuk kahak dan selsema aku berdarah. Dato' pulak suruh aku refer pada Doc E & T, Dr Aminudin yang so-coincidently is NadiaWani's uncle. HAHA. kene refer die sebab Dato suggest aku utk operate tonsil aku yg bermasalah tu. As adv dari Doc tak bertauliah di sekeliling aku bak kata Nadiawani mostly tak bagi aku buang tonsil ni, So she advice me to consult Doc 1st no matter what and then baru discuss macam mana next plan. yes, betul jugak ckp Nadia. hurm. pasal bronchitis tu, aku perlukan orang or Doc yang boleh explain bagi aku faham. Aku ni Doc aku Dato' tapi aku mcm bangang je bila depan dia. HAHA. kes sel darah merah aku pulak satu lagi. RBC lebih dari WBC masa aku sakit aritu. sebab aku G6PD. apa itu? google. and becoming Dr shuze sangat terkejut sbb aku ada bende ni sbb selalunya happen to the boys, male. very rare pada girls. Nak buek camano, since I was born. Haih. G6PD ni ada allergic macam-macam. yang pasti aku tak boleh kene ubat gegat, makan kacang parang, ubat other than Dr prescription, spray ridsect dan ada list yang sepatutya. If langgar pantang larang jugak, one of the effect is causes RBC count aku la problem. Kalau nak explain, nantilah.

pening dengan penyakit sendiri.aku tak pernah mintak. G6PD tu since born. tonsil problem since i was primary school then. RBC, bronchitis, Viral Infection? Tak pernah sesekali mintak dalam hidup ini. Sumpah. Asthma? Itu satu lagi kes sejak secondary school when i was exposed much to dust. Alhamdulilah asthma kurang dah sekarang.

banyak pulak list penyakit. sapa mintak? Tuhan bagi. Ini semua satu dugaan dalam hidup. bak kata BF, Tuhan suruh kita beringat bila kita ditimpa malang begini. ya Allah, kuatkan lah imanku menghadapi segala dugaan dalam hidup ini.

ya Allah..

the thank you part 2

thank you part two

thank you goes to my BF, my sayang. sepanjang saya sakit, he is very worried. I know he having problem with the transportation, but die gagah jugak dgn his brother car. He came along from Muar with Faliq. Teman di Hospital. Walaupun kejap sebab he came at the time I discharge but I really appreciate and glad that you came sayang. That night, he take care of me and make sure i take my meds and have a good rest. The next morning, we take our breakfast together and get something for lunch and have a walk just to make my mind free as I was hospitalized and stay at home almost 2 weeks. So, I need fresh air. Thank you sayang. I love u so much.

Dear BF,

i love u so much.

the thank you

sepanjang 3.5 hari di hospital. i was lucky and blessed being visited by friends, cousins and relatives. bertuah badan. tima kasih banyak yang datang melawat. kedatangan korang makes me happy and cheer up my day. Terima Kasih ya Allah.

SGF yang datang. sayda.wanita.affa.nani.ecah. norman also, he is taking the pic.

shuze came by when i'm taking my lunch. also with her is Nadiawani. Tq korang!

The most precious and ya Allah, aku berterima kasih dikurniakan ibu dan ayah yang memahami. Mak ayah dua kali datang, once in the middle of the week and 2nd is when i admit to Hosp. Tenkiu mak ayah! I love u sooo much!

Mak setia menunggu. Ayah juga. They both stay a night with me after my sis surya take care of me at first two nights. Then, she go to Shah Alam for work.

My sis sarah and Fendi, they mms out picture and wish to get better soon. Tq sarah and Fendi.

My sis surya and little Jaja. Maisurya, take care of me 2 days and stay night with me. Tq maisu! i love u!

The most thankful to Mak Long, Kak Ween, Abg Nuar and little twins who always there for me. Who sent me to hosp, clinics and so many more. It was priceless. Tq All. Tq MakSu Gayah and Pak Usu also K.Lim and the boys who come visiting me. There goes Yanti also come visit me. Tq Zukhirman, K.june and K.pinat yang tolong masa awal-awal sakit esp Man, Tq banyak-banyak sebab tlg settlekan masa hari sakit. To everyone wishes for better, thank you a million. Tq mendoakan saya sembuh. Alhamdulilah dan saya bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi kerana masih hidup dan sihat. Amin.

sesungguhnya sakit itu penghapus dosa.

the cure

sambungan entri sebelum ni.

after a few days, my body temperature back to normal. BP pun normal. Doc came in to the ward and inform that i can be discharge. Sangat sangat happy! Eventho kene jugak last antibiotics at that evening kol 6.00pm, i was discharge at night . At this time, my BF just arrived from Muar with Faliq. Thank you love!

sebenarnya saya diagnose as Viral Disease. but this is more general. If more specific aku tak sure but confirm virus is infection in my blood and my lungs which makes White blood cells counts greater than red blood. Tak normal okay. And after a few meds and treatment, blood count back to normal. I was official normal and stable but still need a precaution especially if go out to public, need to wear mask. oookay! freak but i have to do for my health. aite? Plus, i cannot simply take any meds from anyone and need to have Doc prescription. I also have to stops taking jamu and whatsoever. Even vitamins and etc, i need to break for a while. And after settle up the bills, need to pay 242.50 and selebihnya by PMCARE and get my result and my meds, I ready to take off!!

in kat ward. masa ni dah bersemangat sikit. Alhamdulilah.

my bed.my ward.419. single room. Thats my mom!

this is the meds that need to take constantly. banyak siot.tak tgk dalam plastic lagi.T_T

setelah 3.5 days in Specialist Hosp Ampang Puteri, i am okay now and still Doc gives a week for rest. Mom da suh pegi keje, while boss said to rest a week and early May started working. ok. So, I decide to rest at home. Mom and dad went back to johore after I discharge, while my BF is waiting for me until the next day. Thank you sayang.

Alhamdulilah.

the pain

when the pain goes bad...

sambungan entri sebelum ni

bila sampai di Specialist dalam jam 4.00 ptg, terus berjumpe dgn Dr. tak ada appointment so, need to wait. Then, goes my consulation along my aunt also in the room. After checking and discussion, he decide to admit me to the ward. After submit letter, need to wait available room. As room is full, wedecide to go back home. Around 9.00 pm, got a phone call to come to Hosp and admit to my ward. My aunt, my cousin along with little wawa is waiting for me until the nurse came to do whatever they supposed to do. Meanwhile, mom, dad and sis surya is on the the way to my place. Masa awal ni, temperature body from 40.8 and reduce to 39.8, sikit je.. so, i am restless and just lay down. Sumpah tak larat. Badan terkulai. Around 10.30 pm, Nurse came in for finding the lineto water drip. Ok. Left hand, attempt 2 times but failed. So, proceed to right hand ( around my wrist) success but a little bit suffer.

right hand.

that night. my sis surya teman me whole night. Kesian. dah la tak prepare nak stay. Super cold in the ward. Every 5 hour, nurse came in to check temperature, BP and many more. On the next morning, I still in the ward..rest. after taking breakfast and meds, they call up for X-ray for my lungs. At this time, i feel so relieve as Doc came by at the evening inform that i dont need water drip but need to take lot of water by myself. After x-ray, i taking my bath and sangat la lega! rimas with my own smell. HAHA. so, just restless in the ward. At this time, i cough a lot and flu a lot and the scary thing is my sputnm ( kahak) and my hingus is bleeding. I ask Doc, he inform it because of my virus infection in my blood. I was diagnose as viral diseases, which virus attacking my blood and infection also in my lungs. My white blood cells counts is greater that red blood cell. As i have allergic, G6PD i am specific in meds. Suspect, the blood count and infection is due from my meds that take before this is wrongly given by Doc and the main cause of virus is through my tonsil is swelling super big. U know what, that i unable to eat anything other than porridge because of my tonsil.

dinner day ke berapa tah. porridge saja ok.

breakfast : oatmeal and bread with milo

my last lunch : with little twins

last day dinner : porridge

setiap hari masuk ubat antiobiotik ( sangat high conc) and antidot ( tak sure apa, untuk prevent cloth). bila masuk je, aku rs mcm nk menjerit..sebab super sakit.. itu guna line cucuk sebelah kanan. agak suffering beberapa hari. masuk hati ke 3, aku dah tak boleh tahan. nurse cakap kene buat line baru, sebelah kiri. meremang. kalau ikut, da berapa kali cucuk dengan cari line tak jumpe, dengan amik darah beberapa kali. memang suffering. so, at last line baru sebelah kiri.

line at left hand. last antibiotic masuk. Nurse cakap line ni perfect sbb blood yang kluar show that it perfect. lega. so, total up is 9 cucuk for both hand. suffering.and masa hari ke 2 ke ke 3, i have to undergo CT Scan, menakutkan. selalu tgk dalam HOUSE je. ni bila kene sendiri scary. tak sakit cuma trauma tgk bende alah tu pusing2 atas kepala. scan ni for check either i have sinus or not and Doc inform ada sinus but not serious. lepas beberapa kali antibiotics, scan and x-ray what is the result? How my infection going on?

Next Entry.

the sick

sakit itu penghapus dosa. ya, benar.

pecah rekod rasanya. harini cukup 2 minggu lebih aku off. off9 dari kerja. week yang pertama memang pegi training plus ada emergency need to go back to johore. then, comes the good news. i was officially permanent staff on that coming monday and i am soo happy that time. so, attend to HQ for briefing..Meanwhile at the evening, attend for training MLCN. ok. there goes the incident.

On Monday, 18th cuma rasa sakit perut yang melampau. Suspect masuk angin tak makan and been suffered since Sunday before. So, pegilah clinik panel dekat Annexe 2 and Doc gives ubat angin. Then, afterwards there goes the pain. Suddenly my body is total weak, my mind is out somewhere and my temperature is getting high. Eventho condition da agak teruk, but still bertahan sampai 5.30 pm. Call up my aunt to pick me up for clinic as I am so weak and restless. At clinic, just gives the same old meds and MC for the next day. After meal and takes my meds, i feel more suffered. My legs is numbs and i have serious headache which i cry every hours and minutes. I am unable to walk proper and body is total weak. Everytime i eat, i vomit it out. It happen that night and i barely cannot sleep. Every hour i woke up.
on Tuesday, as on MC. I rest at home. Morning feel the total pain. Im shivering like hell. Body and leg cramped. Eat in and everything is comes out and yes, I cry. I was soo like restless but still I hold myself until evening and my aunt say that my body is totally hot. At night, same things happen and i cannot sleep and i keep vomit like every hours and I am restless. Plus, headache makes me cry all day.
on Wednesday, I thot i will be okay but everything is wrong. I am restless, shivering and cry as my body temperature is getting high and my legs numb again. As no one at home, my aunt take advantages to come home after she settle up school canteen for student rest at 10.30 am, and arrived home around 11.30 am. She pick me up to Ustaz at Sri Gombak, but unfortunately it is closed and we both get back to Klinik Dr. Hj. Khadzali. ok, klinik ni is the best for me. He is good, understanding and nice. After a session with Dr, he suspect for dengue as my temperature is 39.8 and constant fever and so that i need to gives some blood for testing. Meanwhile, he give me other antibiotics and another 2 days of MC. At this time, my mommy and daddy is super worried so they came to KL from JB and arrived around 7.00 pm. As usual at night, im suffering to vomit, cannot sleep and body temperature is high. That night, mommy take a good care of me and also daddy keep watching me and worried about me.
on Thursday, as today on MC. I was feeling much better than before at 1st but suddenly my legs cramped and my temperature is kinda high which makes me restless. Letak kain atas kepala, 100 plus dah berapa botol but still not ok..A few hours then, I get sweating and feeling ok even went to AEON AU2 with daddy and mum for lunch and walk. OK. daddy and mum going back to Johor around 3.00 pm and saya sangat tak sedap hati sebab rasa badan still not OK but think it positively. At night, whatever i eat it cames out and legs cramped and not feeling very well.

my MCs.

my meds for 3 diff clinics, plus the only minyak Nonaroguy that i can use as i having blood allergic. G6PD. google okay!

on Friday, as advice from mummy I put my strength to work today and walk to Menara Maybank but still inside i feel the pain. At 1st, around 9.00 am, i am not feeling comfortable.. I already wearing 3 pcs and i wear up the jacket and pull the shawl around me as i am start to shivering bcz of coldness and my temperature is high. I cry. I called up the teams, and they adv me to go back home and went to check up again. I called up the Clinic, they inform its not dengue as my platlet count is normal and they req me to go back to see Dr. I ask favor from MBankers, but they all using train to work. So, RE Agro Bank is help me much. He pick me up and bring me to Clinic, and as Dr adv me to go Specialist. RE Agro is help me with faxing letter to PMCARE and waiting for them to fax back GL. So, he help me from A to Z. After settle up GL letter, he send me home. At home, i have no strength to do anything, i restless and end up with no lunch and i just lay down on bed shivering. I call up and text my aunt n cousin to go back early, as I needed to admit Specialist Hosp and they both shocked and I call daddy, sarah and Surya , they shocked.. when call up mummy, she cried.




What happen in the hospital?What actually happen to me?


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with the beautiful girls.

it was unplanned. as before, every monday was a hectic and stressfull day ever among the other day in a week. but, fortunately this monday 11th april it was a loving day and awesome. as for me, after dating on weekends and early morning he send me direct to the office. then, goes weekdays so-called training, memang superrrr awesome. walk around times square, a little shopping.. shoes and shirts.. the girls catch up a skirts and a few clothes. hey, it was heaven ever. then, after shopping n etc there goes our lunch. yummy.... its kinda bit hard to decide as need to consider halal as i'm muslim, but fortunately both of them is okay. last-last hui yi decide johnny's! yes. yummy and the most important is we r FULL. Alhamdulilah..

johnny's times square.

here we come

after few decision and tadaa. aik.ada telo 2 biji. tulen ke tidak? haha

fish ape tah and meat balls. layan aje. sbb dah lapa.

with karen tan!

with hui yi..

busy cooking kan? kan? heheh

waiting... (perut pun dah bunyi..)

stil waiting....

after the meal.

with the beautiful girlssss...
image courtesy from Karen Tan album. tq karen. not yet upload from my phone.




notakaki: may God bless us. Amin.

good news

alhamdulilah

just received good news, early this morning from hana.






terima kasih ya Allah. aku bersyukur kepada - Mu.

my other half

l o v e

tolong jangan annoying dengan entri ni. biasa lah. tengah mood berchenta. tgh berkasih sayang ni. biarkan aje. kang buat entri emosi, menambah dosa pulak. kan? kan? ok. let me check.. my other half? not physically but ______ ( isikan tempat kosong sebab aku tatau nk define macam mana) hehe. last weekends, after not seeing for almost 3 months at last we both end up having a small vacation in Melaka. si dia yang ada reunion sekolah dia. sekolah arab. fuh fuh. sekali lagi. sekolah arab tanwiriah, Muar or Batu Pahat aku tak sure. tarik nafas sekali lagi. sekolah arab ya. tak ramai yang pegi dan yang pasti ex ke skandal masa skolah si dia yang jadi organizer. setakat mesra dgn ex or skandal lama tu, buat tak nampak aje lah. kalau layan hati panas. tak gitu? haha.

few snaps. let the picture talk.

ini ex-schoolmate dia.

intan.husna.lily a.k.a ex. fifah. fiqah. timah. HIM. solehudin. Zaki. saufi. Musa.

from left : lily ( ok. this is the girl..u know what i mean). husna. fifah. fiqah. timah and me (pls ignore, i'm just an outsider.)

tipikal gambar ber-dua sebab tak ada official photographer.

tenkiu a lots to Zudy for this pic. the only yg perfect for both of us.

banyak actually gambar.tapi, bukan reunion aku.so, ape cer nak sibuk-sibuk? haha. tak gitu?

notakaki : when on vacation, being spoiled by someone else. dem u.

life sucks

life is unpredictable.

bak kata sorang mmber. life manusia yang tgh kemaruk lagi unpredictable. mcm haram.

entri ni pesan siap-siap.memang akan emosi.memang dalam hati ada carutan dari segala bahasa. actuallly tajuk entri tak ade kaitan pun dgn apa yg aku nak bebel.tgh geram dan hati panas.aku tak faham. ada org pernah ckp, kalau aku xde kat office tak ada effect pon. so,aku faham la yang aku ni hanyalah kambing hitam. ok.kambing hitam. tapi, sejak kebelakangan ini aku tak berapa nak faham. bila orang lain jadi leader, team mate termasuk aku akan membantu. tapi, bila aku jadi so-called leader, nak cakap team mate tak membantu..tak jugak.. nak ckp membantu tak jugak. pening aku. hangin sampai kepala pon ada.

aku rasa mcm dah handover keje aku.tapi, why must i get ALL THE BLAME? nak salahkan aku or salahkan sape-sape yang tak follow up. but, nevermind.. who else should be blame? no one perfect OKAY?? dah berapa kali aku luahkan ke sorang member tapi die keep on advice " sabar mai..sabar.. yang penting..kau dah handover then goes to the person who gets the job.." but, dalam hati dan dalam otak ni fikir and konon2 positive but at the end I GET ALL THE BLAME. tensen kan? rasa mcm nak mengamuk pon tak ada guna sebab yang pasti lepas ni yang BURUK nama aku gak. yang FACING customer aku gak. yang susah nk DEAL dgn sapa-sapa pun aku gak. so, mcm celaka la.

aku tak nak lebih-lebih dan yang pasti walaupun hati aku kuat yang aku sebenarnya tak bersalah dan tak ada hati nak BLAME orang lain pun tapi aku rela to accept all the past mistakes. beruntung kan dapat member macam aku. bersyukur la sikit woi! bukan nak masuk bakut, angkat sendiri. tapi, fikirlah. dalam operation center some ppl will acting selfish but only a few will get into the team. so, should i blame the fate that i'm just not lucky to get a team and around ppl like this? seriously CANNOT! the fact is i serioulsy dont give a damn anymore. now, officially i take all the blames. SATISFIED now?

notakaki: hidup dengan manusia yang dah perasan perfect susah gak. wutever la.die ingat die Tuhan kot. dem u!

sabar

KARMA does exist.what goes around, comes around.





only GOD knows why.





notakaki: hati panas tapi redha dan sabar.

hell tuesday

entri ni kalau boleh mencarut dengan perasaan bebas. memang penuh entri ni dengan kata-kata kesat. tapi, aku tidak begitu. ya, benar. cuma, hari ni the conclusion is like hell.
my tuesday is like hell. bukan salahkan takdir tapi ini ketentuan yang aku terima harini. everything seems not right.se-awal 5 pagi bangun, follow my aunt to school canteen. naik train tepat jam 6.00 pagi, memang waktu train start the operation. first time. sampai di KL sentral, kosong. terkiput-kiput cari news.com. hungry! grab a one or two bread n drinks. catch up bus to TTDI. so, arrive around 7.20 am. SO DAMN EARLY. i am soo exhausted. ok, next.
setiap pagi.run script.buat report. 9.58 am hantar.masuk conference call. nasib semua ada update.then, goes shoots from the bos. ok. masa tengah busy dgn report DSR. he shoot lots of things. yes yes. i am only ordinary human. i not able to do SO DAMN MANY things in one time. haish. plus, a few things went wrong disebabkan arahan si BOS and i am the one who to be blame because of his. i mean BOS lah! plus, one guy who req for help and i tried my best to catch a free time to help him but what the hell i get back is CURSE from him. yes, i am blur due to so many stuff need to be follow up. i admit but at least appreciate i already help you lah OKAYY. what a waste kan? sooo sad. plus, the partner seems not helping and i am the ONLY ONE who left as everyone else is busy breakfast and bla bla bla. at the end, NO LUNCH and only 1 slice of sandwich. HUNGRY okay! at the end, i cry. bukan nangis sebab rasa LOSER just rasa GERAM. aargh! wutever
then, goes training at the evening. bla bla bla. yes. i attend but not a fully focus as the training is super duper rare buat in daily life. yes, MBB bukan owner router. CSC managed. so, masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri. bukan x take note, take note. cuma gitu-gitu je la. so, the result. the trainer email out that they dissappointed with evening session. so, what? senyum je la.
now, 7.29 pm. and still at the office. report pending since 1st April baru je selesai. sesi bercakap-cakap dgn bos selesai dan very lucky sebab our conversation is suam-suam kuku sebab muka aku da mcm belacan dgr dia bebel. pening.pening. kamon mai. just go with the flow. u need to ver survivor. tepat jam 8.00 pm, cukup hampir 12 jam aku kelaparan. Dayah dah menunggu muka macam anak kucing.
ok. cukup. dayah, jom makan!!!

tuesday, everything seems not right...but, who cares? I'm still survive. Alhamdulillah.




notakaki: nak tido.nak tido.

celaka

mmg cilakoi.

celaka? kenapa.

bila balik rumah johor awal bulan lepas, ada je kejutan yang tak berapa nak happy. ayah eksaited. "adik, ada orang nak berkenalan...tu poskad.. duda tuu. HAHA" ha? terkejut aku.sumpah. dulu ada penah kes macam ni gak. masa tu sakan suka masuk contest dalam galaxie. tak tahu mana silap. address and details tiba-tiba ada dalam column yang page galaxie last sekali. ala, yang looking for friends and wutsoever. masa tu kes lagi celaka. lebih kurang satu kotak surat, poskad dan macam-macam surat dapat.cintan cintun. melayu ada. india ada. cina ada. bangsa lain pun ada. haha. desperate jugak manusia dalam dunia ni. memang selamat lah, no phone tak diexposed. kalau tak, memang menempuh bala bencana.

poskad ni. dari siape tah.divorced. cab driver.ampang pulak tu.sumpah scary nak naik taxi. mcm haram. aku dok pikir runsing, celah mana tau alamat rumah ni. setahu aku sejak kes dlu, memang tak masuk apa-apa contest dah. kalau issue pasal cab, lagi horror dulu. naik cab dgn sister. driver tu bawak route yang agak jauh and siap request nak no phone and seems like MEMAKSA. horror. driver tu, spectacles and chubby banyak. means, kalau dia duduk tu terkeluar la. nasibla mase tu, both of us sit at the back. my sis speechless and aku mcm biasa tergamam 2 minit pastu terus shoot ayat macam-macam. tak kasar tapi sinis. yang penting, terpaksa berjalan jauh sbb nak FAKE the real house we both stay. gila kau, kalau dia tau rumah. nak mampos?

notakaki: dunia tidak lagi selamat? r u sure?

that girl is soo dangerous

yes.this girl is dangerous. hehe.

little wawa at istana budaya, still on Lat Kampung boy The Musical Fever.

she is not dangerous, but she is ADORABLE.

luve u.

notakaki: i miss my baby means HARRY.

shokuro sedap

ekceli. tak ada niat nk tiru sapa-sapa. but co-incidently just got info that my cousin also doing and making chocs. as for now, she's not into biz due to super busy working but insya-Allah will do in future. here some few snaps after a night at her house in bangi. not sure the exact name, praline. chocs compound. oreo and etc but of course chocs are delicious!so, then, we called it as delicious-shokura. anyone interest can buzz tru Fb or twitter. shall do by customer request and then the price. insyaAllah will give the cheapest. :)

as masa tgh bakes some chocs, the kiddos Irfan, little twins jaja and wawa are tukang menjilat chocs dalam bekas. :) oh, senang je buat chocs ni.. just need a few tips, recipe and then must be RAJIN okay!

notakaki: testing.testing. masak kuah kari asam laksa tak lepas. ni nak buat chocolate. haih.