Monday, May 24, 2010

congrats Dr. Mira

Congrats Dr. Mira

nani yang konvo ok? :)

great saturday. jumpe kipas kt uitm shah alam. supposedly ade adhel. tapi, die blah awal as ade hal lain. so, she's not in the shot. sorry adhel. sayda also. jumpe kt midvaly as die kene work on saturday, norman juge. workaholic eh. gud gud. ade ecah.natali.kabir.mira fiancee. mine follow nani n ikhlas, pengantin baru sebulan lebih. mcm janggal rsnye, sbb diorg dah kawin.haha. xde la.ok aje. :) convocation Dr. Mira. medic ok? rank no 4. superb hebat. bangga menjadi kawan die. hohoho. sibuk gila. after event, celebrate tgk movie shrek, yg memule zack tak suke. last2, suke gak. kan zack? hoho. haih. balik rumah follow natra, kepenatan. last-last 3 pagi, serangan bermula. kena lagi pil 5 biji. baru boleh tido. seronok punya pasal, biar lah. dpt jmpe kipas lagi. plan utk next pre-brandung part 2. oh, bandung! another 1 n half month. best best.


p/s: minggu ni kerja satu hari. selase.rabu.kamis. ade training. peace.no war. :)


Wednesday, May 19, 2010

feel like dying


badan.tangan.kaki.sume ketar.otak dah tatau nk pk ape.i really need someone here. to help me out. stay beside me, hold me and tell that "everything will be ok dear".keep thinking, where is 'someone'?

nowadays, there's strangers..repeat back 'strangers' that take cre of me. the strangers that always keep me company for evrything. thanks to the strangers, i appreciate that. eventhough my heart kinds relieved, but i really dont want it from strangers.i really want it from 'someone'. oh, 'someone'. where are you? when the time i really need u, u busy to play futsal with ur friends. Dont you have instinct that something wrong is happening to me? or you just not my destiny. is it true? im blank. are you meant well when you say u love me? hmm.

im having a bad condition right now. i think i've problem with my lungs and heart as lately i'm having difficulty to breathe properly. i feel like dying.seriously. i'm having asthma for 5 times in a week and only for this month, its been like 10 times to feel like dying in a sleep. OH. please. i think that i dun have much time. i taking pills overdose every attacks. now, im out of stocks. Oh, God. please help me. keep me strong. my colleagues advice me to blood check, lungs and heart in hospital. but... who will volunteer taking me to hospital. my aunt n cousins will keep asking and i dun want they to know. Also to my parents and family, i dun want they to know about this. i rather to keep it to myself.


p/s: trying hard to live like i'm dying.

crdt by ~roZzZa





Monday, May 17, 2010

never be the same



Do you come here much? I swear ive seen your face before.
Hope You don't see me flash but I cant help but want you more
Baby tell me whats your story I aint shy don't you worry
Im flirtin' with my eyes, I wanna leave with you tonight.
Do you come here much? ive gotta see your face some more


Night, Don't ever let me go.
i will never be the same, if we ever meet again.





crdt to Nsoroma79

i hope so








p/s: dedicate to you know who you are. *wink*


hari cikgu


to:

ketua keluarga yang hebat : Ismail

cikgu bunga hati tempat mengadu: rohaini

cikgu kecik mengajar kanak-kanak lagi kecik: maisarah

cikgu kewangan dgn tahap kesabaran yang tinggi : maisurya

also

cikgu tadika kemas JKR '92, cikgu srk laksamana '93-'98, cikgu sek tun fatimah '99-03

teacher's in N9 matriculation and Universiti Malaysia Perlis 05-09


selamat hari guru!


terima kasih ilmu dan segala-galanya yang tak terhingga.

arigatoo gozaimasu!!









p/s: credit to V1V14N0hh


Friday, May 14, 2010

u meant well?



what you say that you only meant well?



I don't want you to leave me. though you caught me cheatin'
I really need you in my life
When the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
Let me in and give me another chance.
I know I should of treated you better, me and you were meant to last forever
So baby..what you say?

i'm sorry

p/s: 143


Tuesday, May 11, 2010

tima kasih becoming DR. Fitri

title cm best je.
DR. Fitri, my lecturer mase blaja kt unimap. he's one of my bestest lecturer. also my kampung-mate. haha.org johor weyh! en.fitri skang kt oversea. continue PHD at sydney, uni new south wales. after finish phd, dpt title DR. best. maka, gaji pon best. haha. bahagia la en.fitri oi, anak bini seronok sakan. *ok*
saje je nk highlight name lecturer ni. tad msg tru fb he keep saying i'm so different. thank God, different into something really good.
"Mai, hang nampak segak bila kurus. puji ni."
hahaha.xde point. kurus jadahnye. hahaha. dr menara mybank, bile blik TTDI, masing-masing ckp budak bulat datang. tambah tensen aku. bulat ke aku? tapi, boolat tu comel kan?

i'm not 35.please


macam shit je bile ade org ckp, my voice like 35. when i tell the truth, diorg mcm unbelieveable *dem*. xle trima. haih. no wonder la certain ppl or customer cakap i garang. garang kah? xlgsung ok? nk tgk sape yg garang, meh datang sini. menara maybank tgkat 43. i tunjuk sape garang. hahaha. kalau tak, balik rumah kt johor..i show u sape yg garang. *evil* luve u mak. :)
my voice like 35. but when i meet ppl n customer, i was like 19. my appearance like emm, it depends. when i do my work, i like 24. ok. thats my age. it doesnt matter what age u look like but when it comes to work. i act like my age.
fair kan?
p/s: xde pape pon arini. keje cm biase. esok cuti.weee

Monday, May 10, 2010

astaga. bwk mengucap mai!


buat kerja gila.

budak bunga ros tu dah sound.suh piker elok2. jangan ulang kesilapan yang dulu. hidup asyik nk main-mainkan lelaki. ciss. statement mcm teruk sgt. tapi, what had happen yesterday is like sumthing unplanned. started with simple sms then i dun expect that he will show up. OMG.

im not into flirting situation but i'm just a victim *alasan* he already have gf n his matured face made me think he already married *ohh,melt*. OMG. he's so romantic n sooo gentleman..seriously. HAHAHA. ok ok. itu cuma perasaan 10 minit sahaje. 10 minit je ok? no extra time-feelings given. ok? harap2 harry tak touching, sbb ni cuma nafsu semata-mata. cuma pada harry-ku, hanya lelaki gay yg suka kt die. alasan, sbb muke die jambu. huh. tensen je dgr.
ishk.
p/s: saje nk so-called ceriakan hari isnin yg org slalu komplen mls g keje.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Oh, i like JB.


JB. bukan johor bahru ok? justin bieber. suke suke kt justin bieber. suke je ok? belum obses lagi. he's cute. Ah, die cute sgt. dem! dem! actually,lately ni slalu sgt dgr lagu die. (alasan!!) sepah2 lagu die. mls nk layan sgt. tapi, byk sgt influence dr sekeliling. jadi, lame2 start layan plak budak kecik yg cute gile ni. haha.aku rs jadi cm tah pape. suke young singer. he's on 16! i think. Ok. ( alin, i know my bf is young..HAHAH ) xde kena mengena pon, but when i keep think back. yup. i do fall in love with my young bf. Oh, I really love him.


eh eh eh , dah kenape kau maizura. dah mabok?
LOL



p/s: harry.i ttp syg u. :)



Thursday, May 6, 2010

budak nakal

budak atas kene kuarantin: sbb demam.

budak kat bawah: operasi kastam. selongkar makanan.




p/s: nk balik johor harini.yeay.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

khairul azharizan mohd jamil

baby
credit by : neostarfire55

saya rindu kamu..sgt sgt.


p/s: seriously.

cry cry




There is a great deal of depression that has overtaken my soul,
It floods deep within, into every inch that makes me whole.
I wonder and worry of thought throughout the day,
What is to come, to my dismay.
As a flood of tears pour out of me in all my expressions,
more and more comes, more and more depression.
I assure myself everything is ok!
But who am I fooling?
Then I burst into a spirit of rage.
I have questions, and there are answers.
But I'm afraid and much too weak,
When I try to explain,I hear
I'm hearing wrong and need to be meek
.But this is how I feel, there's no wrong or right,
But as I battle with myself, I always lose the fight
I feel intimidated sometimes by others,
But as I said "This is how I feel"
The pain in me is very real.
I lose control, my thought go wild,
and here I am only a child.
If only you knew what I thought,
If only you knew what I fought.
I need my thoughts held captive.
Oh God, assure me
I'm thinking normal and you'll help me think positive.
I'm hurting, I need you!
Please don't give up on me!
One day I will always make you smile!
The cry of our Hearts.
p/s: meaningful.

king huat


kene kuat? fuh fuh.


lately ni rs mcm loser. seriously. life pretend like nothing happen. wutever i do, i do it wrong. dem gila. entah la kenape. last weekends, family came to KL. arrive on friday night with me not waiting at home. I was as Palace of Golden Horses ( thanks to Alin to make the right sequence. heh)if x, mulalah. golden palace hotel,.ngarut jadah. macam2. ok. apsal kt sane? nnti-lah cerita. on saturday, busy shopping at IKEA for my sister's wedding and Sunday, my fam is already pack things to go back JB. OMG. mmg x feel lgsung, family dtg. and that last day, i was soo homesick. i cry in front of daddy. malu seyh, tapi serious. x tahan. never done before. x tahan? nape eh. mybe aku tak kuat lagi as ppl keep saying i'm strong. i work everyday, pretend like nothing happen. need to menjawab dgn customer everyday, all my movement being watch by them every minutes. yes.everyday, i was pretend. thank God, i stil got my officemate at VAds, make me happy thru email. FB. call. Thanks Akey. :) hahah *gosip*


i need to be strong. i have to. dulu2 mase org ckp, kene strong.ingat senang aje. rupenye, sacrifice to be strong! like today, half day dah proof that i'm not strong. i really dun understand boss thing. i've meet mny types of boss, but i think this one is like a shit. seriously. not just me who feel this, everyone in the team keep talking the same issue. BOSS. everyday, i simpan dalam hati of what had boss torture me by mentally. He just simply said and ask, but do he understand of me who stay with customer and do 3 job at the same time. do he understand? just now, i just talk to the team. we call him as 'pak long' ( ok, jadi sessi mengumpat boss). biarlah.. how do i explain his behaviour? emm.. he's keep busy saving and improving his KPI, but he dun have effort to make the team successfull. what he always do is keep blaming and ask to do something which is suposedly his work, not us that for assistant manager. dem la. trust me. i would give 1k who able to make this 'pak long' is different person and behaviour. hurm.
so, for the short term step. I need to be strong, which i always bear in mind everyday.
p/s: kuat.chayok!


Tuesday, May 4, 2010

cinTA-Hi

dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan di sebalik senyumanmu itu,
kau juga menyintai aku.
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