suka je bukan sayang

kebongokan berlaku. bila aku suka org tu just dgr voice die through phone. damn it!

p/s: hati tetap yang satu.

you're beautiful

awak mmg cantik. betul. x tipu.

yang depan ke belakang?



p/s: buhsan.

lost thursday

hari-hari kerja yang sama. ulang bende semalam atau buat bende baru harini dgn cara yg sama. complicated kan? keje mmg complicated. sume keje complicated. right? emm. semalam tido, salah bntal kot. harini, pegi keje.sakit gila leher. nk tengok kiri tak bleh. tgk kiri penting weyh. pc yg left side is use for FB tapi pc tu slow gilos. *dem* wuhuu. pc yg tgh guna skang khas utk buat keje shj. keje guna system yg sgt byk n heavy. Tsk

harini rs mcm takde mood je. rs mcm lost gila. call customer sume ckp, apsal dgn suara. sakit ke..demam ke.. and mcm2. hurm, arini cm lemah longlai je.entahla.pagi tad rase berat je nak bgn tido. Tsk. ape nk jadi ni? smlm ok je. tgk tv. emm, baby twin demam. esp Jaja. die tgh demam. wawa is still with hingusan dan batuk2. me? also. flu n cough. even her mama also sakit. plus tok umi die pon dah start nk demam n selsema. haih. virus betul. nasib baik bibik still maintain sihat. erk.

serius harini xde semangat. knape eh?

sejak dua tiga hr ni, awak jarang da msg kite. busy ek? kite pon busy jugak. emm. entahlah. tad pagi melepaskan rs serabut dlm kepale ni jalan2 kat lobby tower. sebenarnye, pegi atm machine. lepas tu,kite call-call tak dpt.last-last awak call. kite cite la masalah kite. awak kate rileks la. jgn pk sgt. buat biase je. (mcm tu la slalu) awak ckp, bile awak bz kite free ,bile kite free awak busy pulak. susahkan bile timeline kite tak same. hurm. awak. awak nk tau tak, kite rindu awak. sgt.sgt. bile nk jumpe eh?

p/s: mlm ni mlm jumaat. w00t *xde kaitan ok?*

budak kecik jiwang, main peluk-peluk

Featuring : jiha & wawa

jaja peluk wawa

*aksi jiwang.peluk-peluk.mase ni rugi tak video, diorg gelak.dasat.. *

jaja excited lebih. wawa sengih *blurness*

kalau ikut hati, banyak je gambar diorg ni. tapi, pantang nmpak fon. 'nak. nak. nak' tak dpt melalak. bagi jugak fon yang motorola tu, bile dah bagi.syok tak ingat. baling jauh-jauh.bersepai. nasib motorola tu tahan. huu Tsk. latest, diorg dah terer jalan. jalan tak berhenti smpai penat. hiii. wawa semakin garang dan ade new habit. makan taik idong which is sgt gross. skang, dah ajar die korek hidup lap kt kain. HAHA. from that view, wawa mcm slekeh but die bile dah tumpahkan air or muntah. die akan cr kain, utk lap. *good* jaja skang is meningkatkan skill mengigit smpai lebam-lebam bdan wawa also her aunts. jaja is also known as joyah. suke sgt bebel dlm bahasa yang konpem tak paham. tapi, bile tgk die bebel. best. mcm anak mami *mmg pon..pineng mari..* jaja also notti. jaja is closest with me. depends la. :) kalao kene pukul, die lari cari tok umi die. hehehe.

p/s: jaja wawa. da besar nanti. blaja pndai2.keje best. blanje aunty zura eh. HAHA :)

weekend

pagi sabtu, layan kerenah budak kecil yang baru berjalan. ingat nk jogging. tapi, layan diorg jalan satu taman mmg mcm jogging. peluh sakan. lepas sakan, cari breakfast. makan sampai kenyang. pastu terbongkang, terbongkang kejap, pastu kene g jumpe ustaz. singgah selayang, hantar diorg. lepas tu pegi jmpe ustaz tu, smpai la tghari. balik dr tu, pegi selayang. melepak kejap. rehat smbil membiarkan budak kecil menyelongkar semua dalam rumah. perut dah rasa lapar. nasib baik mak mentua sepupu masak nasik. lauk beli. tapi, sedap gile. bila lapar, semua sedap. hu. makan smpai kenyang. abg nuar 2 kali tmbah penuh. fuh. mmg kebulur. lepas makan kenyang, bongkang. huhu. bdan dah rs cm tak sedap. Tsk. tgk2 jam da pukul 3.00. terus balik rumah. smpai rumah. kemas-kemas barang. tiba-tiba perasaan rajin datang, bila tgk depan rumah penuh dgn hasil buangan kucing yang terbiar yang ingat rumah ni port utk melepaskan 'hajat kot. maka, membasuh depan rumah. kasut2 suma basuh sebb kucing punya pasal. ciss. lepas tu, tgk tv. lipat baju. basuh baju. kemas bilik. Fuh...mmg rajin gila. dah pukul 6.30 ptg, baru tringat rupenye tak mandi dar pagi. pecah rekod, mndi sekali je sehari. eeii..selekeh. malam, bongkang depan tv. ceh *penat sgt tuu*

video-video kelam-kabut menjaga baby twin nakal yang sgt comel *next entry*

pagi ahad.bangun mcm org nk pegi keje. lagi awal nk pegi keje. kol 5.30 dah sedar. mandi manda nk pegi bangi. amik kezen ku yang masuk contest keep slim semi final. die bru sebulan, tapi da lost agak byk. best jugak. best mmg best, itu kalau duit byk la. tgk ade 15 contestant yg pegi. ade yg muda lagi, baru 21 kepoh nk g keep slim. padehal muda lagi, bleh je g exercise.gym. kan? unless la kalau mcm very career woman. xde mase la. agak pelik la, bile tgh org muda g keep slim. buang duit aje. bukan bleh agak, kot kot die dah tua tibe2 gemok balik.kan? kan rugi. haih.bukan dengki, tapi nk encourage youngster n youth tu more live in healthy way. jogging ke gym lagi bagus kan? datang sg,wang kol 8.00 pagi, event start kol 12.30. balik kol 2.30. mmg lama gila la kt sane. tahan nafsu je nk shopping. fuh fuh. semi final ada 15 org, each contestant tu dah buat treatment ade yg sebulan, 4 bulan n etc. for my cousin, only a month. she already lost 10 %. impressive. on event going, every contestant tu must catwalk and give a 2 minutes speech. (ok.part ni rs mcm annoying) bile ade a few yg speech lame gile. Tsk. mcm model. fine la, diorg lawa. but, every one give 2 or 3 minutes je. when it turns my cousin, she's the only one who speak in english. woot. die mmg oversea punye org. heheh. judges utk event keep slim amba-hunt ni actually utk cari next ambassador after, raja azura..ruhil shafinaz and farah fauzana. so, this event for choose who will be in final and then the champion. judges yang ade is ruhi shafinaz, datin noniswara dan stella melinda lai <--tak sure. . when it comes to result, my cousin made it to final. fuh. at last, worth it kene tgu dr pagi. hehe. after event, melantak kt KFC. my cousin maintain with salad, padehal mase tu spicy chicken ade 15 pcs. org yg mkn just 3 org besar, 2 budak kecik. her husband dah eat, so die tak mkan. supposedly, me n other 2 yg besar yg kene masuk keep slim. HAHAH. nk buat cmne, duet tak byk. so, kurus secara tradisional la. puasa n im totally out with nasik. fuh. tahan ke aku ni? hehe. smpai rumah kol 3, disambut dgn bebelan yang tidak faham oleh 2 budak kecil tggu depan pintu. mcm setahun tak jmpe mak ayah die. hehehe. kelakar. jaja bebel tah ape2. wawa sengih2. both of them is damn cute! :) letak barang, basuh depan rumah lagi. sidai baju. lipat baju. petang, teman makcik beli barang utk kantin. byk gile. tapi, puas sket dapat beli brg2 rumah yang pending. hehe time2 ni, sapik pulak ajak kluar. tapi, penat sgt. lagi pon, si eric juksuan tu tau ke rumah aku, haha. sapik sapik. tepon lagi dah nk maghrib, mmg tak kluar la. mentioning that piccolo will be there too. but sorry sgt can't make it. dah maghrib n im totally exhausted. fuhh.malam, for the first time bongkang awal. kol 9.30 dah berdengkur. ZZzz

snap at sungei wang plaza

my cousin: result after a month

my cousin: with her daughter n sister *k.Ween*

my cousin: with her kids 'Nana & Irfan'

my cousin: with daugther

myself and my cousin, K.Lyza

*gemok.gemok* tensen.tensen

p/s: penat sgt. weekends patut rest.tapi, byk pulak bende buat. Tsk .kene pegi mengurut ni.

mimpi

hampir mati dibunuh


hampir-hampir mati secara maya sebab dibunuh oleh jiran yang terlalu benci dgn aku. ni bukan realiti. tapi, cuma mimpi. minggu lepas, minggu yang mencabar. macam-macam jadi. akibat terlalu rasa beban dan tekanan, at last datang sakit yang terlalu dalam menusuk jiwa. jarang nk rasa tekanan mcm ni, bukan dgn kerja tapi dgn emm..paham2 la. kerja dgn orang. mcm ni la.. tekanan jiwa buat aku at last terbongkang tido waktu kerja dgn inhaler dan pil-pil di tepi katil. berpuluh2 kali pam dgn inhaler. rs sakit sgn dada ni. Tsk. bila malam, sbb asyik memikir. at last mimpi yang mengarut. dalam mimpi, masa tu pura-pura tido. tiba-tiba, ade jiran rumah tepi benci sgt dgn aku n adik (dlm mimpi saje.) pastu, ms tgh tertiarap tido. die datang tepi, smbil nk hayun parang. masa tu, terus jerit. in realiti pon jerit, smpai bibik pon rsnye tersedar aku ngigau. bgn2, terus amik air smbahyang dan akhirnya sakit datang kembali. entahlah. bila kerja mcm ni, tekanan itu mmg wajib. cuma tahan atau tak tahan je.emmmm

tekanan dan beban bila bekerja dgn org. nk lyan mcm-macam kerenah. bila die kene marah dgn customer, die pass kemarahan tu kt assistant die. mcm tu la lumrah hidup. bukan nk menghargai diri ni yang kene duduk dgn customer, tahan telinga je bila mcm-mcm kena and berpura-pura hati kering padehal aku ni sgtlah sensitip. Tsk. hidup.hidup. lepas meluahkan perasaan smbil meleleh air mata dgn hana dan baby. rs lega sket. harry ckp itu mainan syaitan, mmg la mimpi mainan syaitan. tapi,mungkin terlalu taksub dgn kerja.jadi mcm ni kot.

kerja.kerja.kena kerja la..mcm mane nk hidup kalau tak kerja?

p/s:sape volunteer nk byrkan ptptn aku?

priceless

sedang leka buat keje tiba-tiba..
alamak..
cincin hilang!!!

pegi balik toilet.tgk2 ada org tmpal notis,
[ring found in toilet.pls call ext ****. mrs. Li ***]

dem.mne de direct phone use customer punye line. kelam-kabut tanye k.izan, Clerk kt office. Mrs tu takde.kluar lunch. ishk. menunggu dia punya lah lama. hati tak x sedap hati. tak senang duduk. buat keje sume tak kene. lepas solat, at last mrs tu dah on place. trus rush pegi jmpe die.

"ërr, miss Li.. u found ring in the toilet.really?"

".ya ya. oh, its yours ha?.why u tak call ext?".

"err,im not maybank staff just from Tm staying in Maybank. specific is i was from Vads.".

".ohh. ok. no wonder." *laugh*

hehehe. thnx miss!

macam ni perasaan bila priceless stuff from him hilang. perasaan kita bukan main risau.tapi, dia? hilang tah mane2..ade kesah? hadiah kita bagi ade lagi ke? sorok mane tah? awak ade kesah ke? emm....
barang dia bagi, kita susah payah jage..tapi, yg kita bagi?...ade lagi ke?

p/s: saje je.buat issue nk battle! :P

rindu elvis maisuley

saya rindu kakak saya.
tsk.

aja-aja fighting!

hari-hari berlalu tanpa makna.entahlah.mungkin terlalu byk berfikir.

bila berseorangan lagi byk berfikir.

haih~

bukan hidup ni tak ada kawan. ada kawan.cuma kalau weekends free, insyaállah jumpe.

kalau tak, *sorang lagi.

bukan kt tempat kerja ni, xde officemate. ada je. cuma mereka jauh. maka sorang2 di HQ. *sorang lagi.

bukan xde boyfriend, ada je. cume die jauh. *sorang lagi.

ada pernah terbaca. bila kita hidup berseorangan ini adalah macam membunuh diri. kenapa ya? cuba fikirkan. bila kita keseorangan, kita akan terlalu memikir,tak kira apa. dari yang kecil hinggalah yang besar punya hal. pernah rs mcmni? try to be alone. not long, just enough to stay in home alone and doing nothing. then, u'll feel to kill yourself..i just have done that before..bila ckp soklan tadi, mesti ada yg jawab "tak apa kalau duk sorg..asalkan internet ada.tv and etc yang canggih manggih". kan? mesti jwb mcmtu. sebenarnye, manusia yang terlalu dgn kecanggihan di atas muka bumi dan terlalu duniawi adalah manusia yang tidak bersyukur dgn nikmat Tuhan. hidup ni bukan berseorangan, walaupun kita keep in touch dgn alat2 canggih tapi ingatlah kita ni hidup bersama-sama dgn benda2 hidup iaitu manusia dan haiwan. jgnlah sesekali kita, asyik terperuk dirumah seronok dgn kecanggihan yang duniawi, tapi bergembira-lah berpada-pada dgn kwn-kwn dan orang sekeliling di luar sana. tapi, ingat pergaulan sesama manusia perlu dijaga. kalau tak dijaga, alamat seperti mati 7 kali sehari sebelum kita mati dalam erti realiti. fuhh (fakta dr buku La Tahzan)

bila naik bas semalam. teringat dgn kisah2 lama yang dah terlanjur sana-sini. mengeluh. apalah nk jadi dgn manusia ni. lagi-lagi diri sendiri. Tsk.bila hidup jauh dgn family, rs mcm-mcm dalam hati. bukan seronok tapi takut dgn masa hadapan yang tak pasti. bila akak dah balik kerja di kampung halaman, mulah perangai mcm ni. asyik bergenang air mata je. haih. hidup kene cekal dan wajib diteruskan. chayok!

p/s: mai, sila pulang ke pangkal jalan.ok? InsyaÁllah..

live like we're dying

Sometimes we fall down, can't get back up
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough
How come we don't say I love you enough
Till it's to late, it's not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
And we could make a feast from these crumbs
And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you,
What would you wish you would've done

Yeah, we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying

We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

And if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbye
Should be so careful who we live out our lives
So when we long for absolution,
There'll no one on the line, yeah

we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying

We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

Like we're dying, oh, like we're dying..
We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

You never know a good thing till it's gone
You never see a crash till it's head on
Why do we think we're right when we're dead wrong
You never know a good thing till it's gone

Yeah, we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying

We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

Like we're dying, oh, like we're dying..

We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying..



p/s: wut else?

i think its true

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one


I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought,
"Hey," Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one




p/s: i think its true. i'm empty without u.

workplace

7th Floor, Vads. TTDI

43rd Floor, Menara Maybank

wherever it is. life must goes on. kerja mesti buat. kalau tak mane nak carik duet? nak cari sugar daddy ke? dem. Tsk.



p/s: work till you drop.

harry :)

tak boleh panggil budak songkok tinggi dah. die dah start asyik pakai topi. tapi, takkan nk panggil budak topi? buruk sgt. nak panggil ape? baby tu wajib. heh




p/s: harry.ary.ery. wutever it is, still love u.

boleh caye ke?

ade sape-sape penah bace? cube stori sket. :)

p/s: saje-saje.

twins

little twins
dear jaja and wawa

*****

jaja: *muke terpakse*kerut-kerut*

jaja: superb nakal but superb brilliant. she is samseng tapi she's also penakut and jiwang.
she's like " muke ganas tapi dalam hati ada taman".

wawa: *angel face*

wawa: pengikut setia her sister.if jaja cry, she's will definitely cry on the spot without reason.but the most, she's beautiful and full of cute action. :)



p/s: jaja and wawa. bile nk jalan ni.?

nak salahkan sape?

entah.emo lebih-lebih

apesal entah. kadang-kadang rasa mcm nk membunuh pon ada. lepas baca buku tu, menjadi-jadi marah ni.menjadi-jadi pulak air mata ni. makin lama makin laju pulak keluar. haih. entah ape aku pikir. makin di-story kt budak songkok tinggi, menjadi-jadi pulak air mata ni. haih.

sebenarnye, ape yang aku nk utk puaskan hati ni?

salah buku ke yang aku baca yg sepatutnya utk motivasi diri tapi jadi lain atau aku mungkin yg pikir negative side? entah. tak sure. bila baca, lagi mcm-mcm aku pikir.

hidup ni bila tak ada arah tuju atau target jadi mcm ni la. macam aku. sumenye tak sure.

nk salahkan buku ke salah sendiri?

nani & ikhlas

nani & ikhlas

congrats for the wedding!

nani yang sgt lawa. ikhlas yg soo charming.

semoga berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat!

Amin~

p/s: lepas ni turn sape pulak?

oh, april

budak songkok tinggi happy belated birthday143

Entri tertunda : 23 Mac : Cry

nangis lagi.nangis la puas-puas.luahkan segalanya.

ppl might say cry means weak.but, the fact is cry is satisfaction. of wut we've been keep in heart and mind too long, but it depends on subject.seriously.

like today.it was not supposed to cry in front of him but i just cant hold the feeling. the EMO feeling. the anger. fine, they are TOP and im newbie. OK. thats the fact. They never done of wut we done. All the TOP just know how to analyse and bla bla bla. did they know how to coordinate it?? dem.seriously.i'm mad but i know there's a limit. OK. Imagine-lah that there's more than 30 task in day and need to complete within 4 hour. do u think its possible? Fine.. kalau kau rasa aku ni loser sgt, buat lah 20 task tu in only 4 hours..nk tanye org sane-sini. ingat robot ke? dem. bende tu boleh settle tapi takes time. pikirlah!!! bengang gila.

Im just too mad.Terlalu marah dan geram dgn orang atasan yang terlalu pandai sehingga tak tahu erti perikemanusiaan itu ape. pandai tapi bodoh. pikir-pikirkan lah. jangan jadi terlalu pandai, sebab korang akan bodo juga. ingat tu.

p/s: teringat kt pasar malam. lawa tapi bodo. nak amik makanan yong tau fu pon tatau. if tatau tu, dont show it. padehal boleh je perhatikan orang amik cmne, then follow la..lawa, lawa sgt tapi bodoh. dem.

Entri tertunda : 19 Mac : Work

berurusan dgn orang yang tak tahu ape itu erti budi dan hanya tukar baju kerja 2 kali seminggu dan seluar kerja utk seminggu dan pegi kerja jalan kaki dan tidak reti bawa kereta walaupun umor dah tua dasat.

mungkin pemahaman kami berbeza.mmg patut berbeza. entah kenapa. dulu aku ok dgn dia. jenis layan je ape die suh, ye la jage reputasi and performance kan? tapi, lepas dah masuk bulan ke 4. aku rs aku patut bersuara sekali-sekala kan? takkan jadi tunggul kayu je.

tapi, kdg-kdg berpada-pada bila nk bersuara. ade step. jgn main tembak, kang jadi lain.entah. hanya die je yang betul dan sentiasa fikir yang manusia ini PERFECT. kalao perfect ni, robot. kan? kita ni cuma manusia biasa.ada kelemahan dan kekurangan.Tuhan berikan kita kekurangan itu sebagai hikmat supaya kita lebih menghargai dgn apa yang kita ada. Tuhan suruh kita bersyukur dgn nikmat di dunia. kalao kita terlalu sempurna, apa guna hidup? betul x? fikirlah wahai encik bertopi di dalam office. saya hanya manusia biasa yang bercermin mata yang bakal bertambah power sebab mengikutkan kata kamu dan menghadap skrin komputer ini terlalu lama dan akhirnya migrain di hujung hari.

tlg la fikir.

p/s: mungkin lepas bukak topi, baru kau paham perasaan manusia kot. dalam topi, paham perasaan robot. kan? kan?