balik raya yang suwey

Terlalu banyak insiden raya yang berlaku dpt hidup aku. ada yang indah, ada yang mcm sampah. ya, sampah. tahun ni, kali pertama aku berpuasa di KL sbb kerjaya yang tak seberapa. kerja tak penat, tapi perjalanan yg jauh buat aku setiap hari aku tido jam 9. inilah kali pertama tido awal gila. kol 9 dah kong. biarlah. badanku letih, manje betul dia ni. ishk

raya kali ni balik dr kl naik bas. tiket beli last minit. ade pulak. musykil dah sebenarnya.yelah, kot2 bas tambahan or bas persiaran. tapi, sebab nak raya balik je la and that abg kaunter said it is not bas tambahan. hmmm.layan je. the real day and date, pegilah aku kat bukit jalil. leceh betul, tapi layankan aje. the first bad thing happen to me that time was i was bitten by something i'm not sure what is it. maybe its a bee or wutever and slowly my mouth was swollen mcm shit gila. then ,ppl in the bus keep asking "dik, bas nk g johor mane satu..." and etc.so, im just sengih mcm kerang busuk and nodding je. plus the suwey thing was the BUS! mmg la bukan bas tambahan, but bus ting tong. the bus is like rapid kl punye bas. mmg btul2 suwey that night. seriously. plus again, when im in the bus at first dah setting elok nk duduk kt seat tu. suddenly the bus driver as me to transfer other place sbb bla bla bla. mls nk layan. dah la that time, my mouth yg bengkak tu make me just sound like "hmm..hmm." damn btul. mcm lembu! the place then oh, gosh sempit gila. the girl yang stay beside me, like put all her stuff and at last im just sit half of the seat. mmg damn gila la. %#@()*&(! thank God, that my dearly Harry yg keep comforting and persuade me through the phone. Thanks syg! kalau u takde, mmg dah EMo je. heheh :P

when it is nearly nk smpai the location. i'm oversleep and terbangun trus sampai. at first, tak recognise langsung my own place but after detect certain place i just like "oh, dah smpai rupenye!". that girl next to me dah la bukan org johor. damn btul. nasib aku tak terlajak pegi tempat lain. haish. useless sungguh! sampai2 rumah, rushing pegi mirror tgk the progression of my mouth! budus. im sooo ugly. my sister ckp "rilex la, cool la u dik, like angelina jolie" mcm siot je! my mom very worried and ask me "hey, dik..cpt2 letak minyak..tuam2 sket. dah nak raya ni.." yes, thats the answer yg make me feel relieved. love u mom! daddy pulak keep saying " abislah spoiled family picture tahun ni..huhu" haishh...sabar je laaaa.

raya kali ni tak berapa nk feel. entah la. after i lost my cousin and busy with the working placement at KL make me like tak de mood nk raya but still i'm trying hard to just go with the flow of the preparation at home. my family dah ready mcm2, takkan nk ignore je kan? so, how about just layan je, ok? im not hypocrite but sometimes pretending to be happy is considered la and it depends on situation. suke2 je buat conclusion. hehehehe.

so, whatever happen in life i will just keep going. LIFE MUST GO ON. kan?

1st syawal comes in a few minutes, so to all Muslim in the world wish you

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

Wish you may have the Success,prosperous and Happiness in your life. May Allah bless you in this auspicious day of eid mubarak. Amin~

p/s: wish goes especially to KIPAS, heroes 9903, UniMAP Material Eng 05/09, GEMS STC '02 esp GREEN GLOBAL and Ainol, Eni, Fadil, Sapik, In and Intan :) Special to my syg Harry *MISS you* :)

makin hari makin benci

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dulu setiap kali di atas jalan raya, melihatkan kenderaan yg besar mcm ni tak ade perasaan langsung. macam tak amik kisah ape yang pemandu nk buat. walhal, dalam berita dan suratkhabar dah penuh cerita dgn pemandu lori yang bawa laju dan merbahaya hingga melibatkan kemalangan jiwa dan kematian. semua hal-hal ni dulu, aku takat amik lepas mata je. atas alasan, tiada kaitan dalam hidup aku. tap, itu semua dulu. sekarang, bila dalam kereta aku mesti berperasaan emo dan dendam melihat lori yang ada. tak kira lori pasir, lori trailer atau segala macam jenis lori. aku jadi EMO.

kenape ek?

arwah sepupu kesayangan aku. pergi meninggalkan dunia ini sebabkan kenderaan atau menatang besar tu. arwah dalam perjalanan menuntut ilmu di melaka. tanpa semena-mena, lori durjana buat pusingan U lantas melibas arwah yang menaiki motosikal. kejadian berlaku sekelip mata. sehingga kini, aku masih tak boleh menerima kehilangan dia. walaupun luaran, aku mcm 'ok' tap hati ni menahan sebak setiap kali teringat dia. kemalangan itu bukan sampai situ je, walaupun berlaku bulan puasa di mana sepatutnya umat melakukan kebaikan tetapi pemandu lori yg durjana ini tiada muhasabah diri langsung. dek melepaskan diri takut di kenakan tindakan dan takut, pemandu lori mengalihkan kedudukan motosikal arwah seolah-olah kemalangan tu seperti arwah yang terbabas melanggar lori tu. Nasib rakan-rakan yang ada disekeliling mengambil gmbar pemandu lori yg sgt bodoh itu. Ya ALLAH, perasaan marah yg tersemat dalam hati hanya Tuhan yang tahu. itu baru aku sbg sepupu, bayangkan perasaan keluarganya. bila anak kesayangan diperlakukan begitu. bayangkan lah!

dulu hanya memandang tanpa perasaan kpd lori-lori begini, tapi sekarang. makin hari makin benci. tak sangka apa yang digembar-gemburkan dalam suratkhabar dan mulut manusia sekalian adalah realiti yang berlaku di atas dunia ni. Astagfirullahal'azim.

geram kan.

khas untuk nassriq safie. ok?

aku n nasmer

nasmer dan eni

entri kali ni khas utk si nasmer. gambar tak clear sbb photographer tak bertauliah. harap maaf, ye. :)

*additional*

nasmer.baru kenal kt senai. padehal satu U.entah cmne boleh miss tgk die.apek, aku jumpe plak.si kecik tu. padehal satu tempat je kt tmn muhibah, perlis.entah. kt senai, kire cm hot gak la. (kantoi..jeng jeng). lalala~

p/s: ok, settle :)

benci

(deviantart by TiaDanko)

Cobalah Kau Rasakan

Air Mata Ini

Sanggupkah Kau Temani

Setiap Titis Setiaku

aku Bagai Mendung

Yang Setia Pada Hujannya

Akan Selalu Ada

dan Terus Bertahan

Senyummu Takkan Terganti

Maafku Takkan Memilih

Sabarku Slalu Berharap

Kau Kembali

Reff

Jawab Jawablah Tanyaku Ini

Apa ku Tlah Di Hatimu

Atau Kau Hanya Mimpiku

Tolong Katakan Katakan Padaku Bila

ku Tak Ada Di Hatimu

Biarlah Kau Hidup Di Mimpiku

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i hate when it come to feel like this. i just don't know how to express it by words.real words that could explain everything.GOSH.oh,God. Please gimme strength to face the real world, reality of life which is complicated and all obstacle that i hope i could deal with. All this feeling i wish it just temporary and it doesnt stuck in me forever. Why love if losing hurts so much? We love to know that we are not alone. right??

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Tag from Elya

25 fact about me

sometimes when talking about facts, ppl might say "oooh, ive lots of facts about me", but when it comes to list them down, they like errrr.. so, thats me! when it comes talking about myself, i just don't know. seriously. but, this time. i'll try my best. here it goes~

1-i'm addicted to ESTRANGED!
2-i enjoy doing art, especially when it comes to abstract art~ everything that comes into mind, i'll sketch it.
3-i love my kipasSUSAHmati. yes, im the one who always tak pegi any reunion or gathering. but, seriously inside i just love them soo much.
4-i have a boyfriend which is my very bestfriend. *luv*
5-i've just completed my training and continued doing my apprenticeship at Telekom, KL.
6- hang out with friends is one of the things that i enjoy so much!
7-eating roti pisang with my bestfriend, panda bear is my favourite thing to do. :P
8-i can stand in front of the laptop than eating very delicious food in front of me.seriously. i like surfing internet!
9-if a place have pool, i can stay in the pool all day! i just love it~
10-i have lots of diary! since secondary school till now, i write everything in my dairy! it will become my memory~
11-i'm the youngest and weirdo in the family. have two sister which we have the same front name.
12-i miss my pillow talk members. seriously~
13-when it comes to something important, i usually get the task alone to completed it than being with my friends. seriously.
14-i am emotional person but when it comes to work. i try my best to avoid it.
15-i am easy to fall with someone. be careful~ however, i prefer to have a 'teman tapi mesra'. HAHA :)
16- i kept everything myself but when i just cannot hold it, i'll talk to my bestfriend or write it on my diary.
17-i love green, black and brown. :)
18-they say my body shape looks like fara fauzana. ye ke? drumstick? gosh!
19-i'm on my diet. avoiding rice , meat, chicken and egg. <--are you sure?? gosh!
20-i am very organize ppl, i hate being in the messy place. Headache!
21-when it comes to new friends, i will get very silent and shy. i'm not easy to make friends at the first place.
22-i just lost my favourite cousin last friday because of an tragic accident. i really miss him badly!
23-till now, at the age of 23 i still dun have any license! HAHAH :)
24-i want camera DSLR badly as i love taking pictures!
25- i want to get married before 2011. HAHAHAHA :)

Done.

Thanx to elya!

Tag?

Anyone who read this! your turn!!

my pari-pari bantal

pari-pari bantal?

it sounds like..errr, what the fish? haha. i just called them my pari-pari bantal on few reason. yes, they are my angel.my bestest angel!!! bantal? means my angel in my dreams. during the night they been through in my dreams and cheer me up! seriously. there's some ppl around us might admire with our friendship that just build up by two and half months. maybe or probably yes. but, who cares? aite? we've been together whole day and nights, doing jobs, being in the classes, hang out till morning, laughing, crying, shoulder to cry on and lots more. all the memories that we've been through will be remembered for eternity. yes! it will :)

shafik.intan.in.fadil.me.ainul.eni.


eni.me.in.intan.fadil.

shafik. *peneman setia handphone and hayati yang jauh dimata dekat di hati*
intan *someone that can transform into dayana anytime. be careful :P*

intan *call her in but when she get wild call her salwana. ahaha. *
fadil * the coolest and closest with in. lalala *

eni * the closest with me.the craziest and bestest laugh that i've ever feel.whenever with her, i am soo happy. thanx darling. luve u *

ainul * the craziest and unexpected panda bear.hahaha. cute LOL. he's brighten and cheer up the life! my feveret angel :)*



ainul.eni.intan.in.shafik.fadil.

"If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will."

p/s: miss you guys soo much! :)

speechless

"What moves through us is a silence, a quiet sadness, a longing for one more day, one more word, one more touch, we may not understand why you left this earth so soon, or why you left before we were ready to say good-bye, but little by little, we begin to remember not just that you died, but that you lived. And that your life gave us memories too beautiful to forget"

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kdg2 kita tak expect dgn apa yang berlaku akan dtg. the excitement of coming home on friday is actually something saddest happen in my life. farewell with the closest friends in GEMS and the biggest lost of my cousin . speechless. i just dun know what else to say and express the feeling. as the tears keeps falling till now. everytime the past memories comes by, i just look at the sky and wish that he could hear and see us through and know that how important he is to us. he's everything to us. from his father side and also his mother side.

Salam.eventhough mase kecik the moment you still stay in muar, both of us keep fighthing and all the moments of your naughtiness still in my mind. how naughty are you are actually make us smiling all day. i always start the fight wish that i could make you cry first but then im the one who cry first and you are the one who celebrate the victory of making me cry. gosh. all moments that we having together when youre still kids and till at the age of 18, will remembered for eternity and forever. never fade.

dear Salam.you'll be miss and remembered forever in our heart and soul. Semoga roh Abdul Salam dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dikalangan hamba-Nya yang beriman dan soleh. Amin~

Al-fatihah~

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p/s: im just soooo damn sad! gosh!!! i miss you Salam!!! badly!

Tribute to Salam :'(

Tribute to Abdul Salam

28 August 2009

7 Ramadhan 1430 Hijrah

You'll be in our memories for eternity. All the contribution that you have given us are just soo priceless.

You'll be miss and you'll always in my heart forever and eternity.

"May the peace which comes from the memories of love shared, comfort you now and in the days ahead. You are in our prayers."

kunyah keropok gigi.ha?

kunyah keropok gigi?

istilah baru yang mak bagi kat aku. setiap malam mak tak bleh nk tido lena, sbb aku mesti syok mengunyah keropok perisa gigi. HAHAHA. bukan ape. keropok gigi tu ekceli gesel gigi. setiap malam, aku mesti gesel gigi. entahlah. aku pun tatao kenape. setiap malam mengunyah gigi, maka ibu pun tak dpt tido lena sebab sibuk menampar muka aku soh aku stop kunyah gigi. mak ckp " KO asek kunyah gigi, nanti terburai semua kang padan muke!" ushh, aku pun tatau nape. Mak bising kenape aku kunyah gigi? Aku pun tatau. Mane sedar wey! tu sume uncouncious behaviour. wuhuuu~ Ayah suggest the only way to prevent is cabut semua gigi. haishhh. takkan itu saje je solution?

Nak buat camne? Aku tak nak rongak. tak nak. tak nak. buruk!

Tolong~

limited edition for harry :)

p/s: gedik sgt ke? hehehe.. miss u already la :)