I am no strong

I am no strong

8.06 am.

Safely arrive KL yesterday sharp 8.00pm. Breaking fast in the bus with bread, kurma and drinking water. I keep thinking about someone that quite far away from me. orr maybe i need to stop thinking about him..rite? Naa. Biar la. Let it play off in my head and let it dancing happily even though I quite suffered enough for everything that happen. Hurm.Hurm.I think i am soo exhausted and very tiring or am i just to emotional? On my way back home, something had happen and it out of control. ITS EMOTIONAL! YES! i am! I am soo exhausted, tiring and very starving. It just came out from the mouth. I am seriously apology. From that since, the tears just never stop. Hurm. I am restless. Alone.Starving.Tiring. Feels like no one can help. Talk to 'him', he ask me to calm down. AHH. 
I am no strong.Woke up at 4.45 am, get my sahur and prepare to work. Off to Train around 6.30 am by bus. Still the tears flow without mercy. My mind keep thinking of had happen yesterday, it involving my close people. Family and relatives. AGAIN. The relatives keep messing with my life, feels like to move out from the house. SERIOUSLY. I can't take it anymore. I need my life. I'm already 26 and i know what I'm doing. I know my limits. I do no wrong now. I feel very pissed off when someone just accuse me of thing that I never do!!! I am no strong to control my anger, my temper and my emotional. Yes. 

I am no strong.ya Allah, kuatkanlah hambamu ini.Siapa lagi ak mahu berserah. hanya padamu ya Allah. :'((






Mak,Maafkan la adik.  You know i miss you so much.