Saturday, September 19, 2009

balik raya yang suwey

Terlalu banyak insiden raya yang berlaku dpt hidup aku. ada yang indah, ada yang mcm sampah. ya, sampah. tahun ni, kali pertama aku berpuasa di KL sbb kerjaya yang tak seberapa. kerja tak penat, tapi perjalanan yg jauh buat aku setiap hari aku tido jam 9. inilah kali pertama tido awal gila. kol 9 dah kong. biarlah. badanku letih, manje betul dia ni. ishk
raya kali ni balik dr kl naik bas. tiket beli last minit. ade pulak. musykil dah sebenarnya.yelah, kot2 bas tambahan or bas persiaran. tapi, sebab nak raya balik je la and that abg kaunter said it is not bas tambahan. hmmm.layan je. the real day and date, pegilah aku kat bukit jalil. leceh betul, tapi layankan aje. the first bad thing happen to me that time was i was bitten by something i'm not sure what is it. maybe its a bee or wutever and slowly my mouth was swollen mcm shit gila. then ,ppl in the bus keep asking "dik, bas nk g johor mane satu..." and etc.so, im just sengih mcm kerang busuk and nodding je. plus the suwey thing was the BUS! mmg la bukan bas tambahan, but bus ting tong. the bus is like rapid kl punye bas. mmg btul2 suwey that night. seriously. plus again, when im in the bus at first dah setting elok nk duduk kt seat tu. suddenly the bus driver as me to transfer other place sbb bla bla bla. mls nk layan. dah la that time, my mouth yg bengkak tu make me just sound like "hmm..hmm." damn btul. mcm lembu! the place then oh, gosh sempit gila. the girl yang stay beside me, like put all her stuff and at last im just sit half of the seat. mmg damn gila la. %#@()*&(! thank God, that my dearly Harry yg keep comforting and persuade me through the phone. Thanks syg! kalau u takde, mmg dah EMo je. heheh :P
when it is nearly nk smpai the location. i'm oversleep and terbangun trus sampai. at first, tak recognise langsung my own place but after detect certain place i just like "oh, dah smpai rupenye!". that girl next to me dah la bukan org johor. damn btul. nasib aku tak terlajak pegi tempat lain. haish. useless sungguh! sampai2 rumah, rushing pegi mirror tgk the progression of my mouth! budus. im sooo ugly. my sister ckp "rilex la, cool la u dik, like angelina jolie" mcm siot je! my mom very worried and ask me "hey, dik..cpt2 letak minyak..tuam2 sket. dah nak raya ni.." yes, thats the answer yg make me feel relieved. love u mom! daddy pulak keep saying " abislah spoiled family picture tahun ni..huhu" haishh...sabar je laaaa.
raya kali ni tak berapa nk feel. entah la. after i lost my cousin and busy with the working placement at KL make me like tak de mood nk raya but still i'm trying hard to just go with the flow of the preparation at home. my family dah ready mcm2, takkan nk ignore je kan? so, how about just layan je, ok? im not hypocrite but sometimes pretending to be happy is considered la and it depends on situation. suke2 je buat conclusion. hehehehe.
so, whatever happen in life i will just keep going. LIFE MUST GO ON. kan?
1st syawal comes in a few minutes, so to all Muslim in the world wish you
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

Wish you may have the Success,prosperous and Happiness in your life. May Allah bless you in this auspicious day of eid mubarak. Amin~

p/s: wish goes especially to KIPAS, heroes 9903, UniMAP Material Eng 05/09, GEMS STC '02 esp GREEN GLOBAL and Ainol, Eni, Fadil, Sapik, In and Intan :) Special to my syg Harry *MISS you* :)

Friday, September 4, 2009

makin hari makin benci


(hanya gambar semata-mata)



(hanya gambar semata-mata)

dulu setiap kali di atas jalan raya, melihatkan kenderaan yg besar mcm ni tak ade perasaan langsung. macam tak amik kisah ape yang pemandu nk buat. walhal, dalam berita dan suratkhabar dah penuh cerita dgn pemandu lori yang bawa laju dan merbahaya hingga melibatkan kemalangan jiwa dan kematian. semua hal-hal ni dulu, aku takat amik lepas mata je. atas alasan, tiada kaitan dalam hidup aku. tap, itu semua dulu. sekarang, bila dalam kereta aku mesti berperasaan emo dan dendam melihat lori yang ada. tak kira lori pasir, lori trailer atau segala macam jenis lori. aku jadi EMO.

kenape ek?

arwah sepupu kesayangan aku. pergi meninggalkan dunia ini sebabkan kenderaan atau menatang besar tu. arwah dalam perjalanan menuntut ilmu di melaka. tanpa semena-mena, lori durjana buat pusingan U lantas melibas arwah yang menaiki motosikal. kejadian berlaku sekelip mata. sehingga kini, aku masih tak boleh menerima kehilangan dia. walaupun luaran, aku mcm 'ok' tap hati ni menahan sebak setiap kali teringat dia. kemalangan itu bukan sampai situ je, walaupun berlaku bulan puasa di mana sepatutnya umat melakukan kebaikan tetapi pemandu lori yg durjana ini tiada muhasabah diri langsung. dek melepaskan diri takut di kenakan tindakan dan takut, pemandu lori mengalihkan kedudukan motosikal arwah seolah-olah kemalangan tu seperti arwah yang terbabas melanggar lori tu. Nasib rakan-rakan yang ada disekeliling mengambil gmbar pemandu lori yg sgt bodoh itu. Ya ALLAH, perasaan marah yg tersemat dalam hati hanya Tuhan yang tahu. itu baru aku sbg sepupu, bayangkan perasaan keluarganya. bila anak kesayangan diperlakukan begitu. bayangkan lah!

dulu hanya memandang tanpa perasaan kpd lori-lori begini, tapi sekarang. makin hari makin benci. tak sangka apa yang digembar-gemburkan dalam suratkhabar dan mulut manusia sekalian adalah realiti yang berlaku di atas dunia ni. Astagfirullahal'azim.

geram kan.

khas untuk nassriq safie. ok?

aku n nasmer


nasmer dan eni




entri kali ni khas utk si nasmer. gambar tak clear sbb photographer tak bertauliah. harap maaf, ye. :)


*additional*

nasmer.baru kenal kt senai. padehal satu U.entah cmne boleh miss tgk die.apek, aku jumpe plak.si kecik tu. padehal satu tempat je kt tmn muhibah, perlis.entah. kt senai, kire cm hot gak la. (kantoi..jeng jeng). lalala~





p/s: ok, settle :)

Thursday, September 3, 2009

benci

(deviantart by TiaDanko)


Cobalah Kau Rasakan
Air Mata Ini
Sanggupkah Kau Temani
Setiap Titis Setiaku
aku Bagai Mendung
Yang Setia Pada Hujannya
Akan Selalu Ada
dan Terus Bertahan
Senyummu Takkan Terganti
Maafku Takkan Memilih
Sabarku Slalu Berharap
Kau Kembali

Reff
Jawab Jawablah Tanyaku Ini
Apa ku Tlah Di Hatimu
Atau Kau Hanya Mimpiku
Tolong Katakan Katakan Padaku Bila
ku Tak Ada Di Hatimu
Biarlah Kau Hidup Di Mimpiku



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i hate when it come to feel like this. i just don't know how to express it by words.real words that could explain everything.GOSH.oh,God. Please gimme strength to face the real world, reality of life which is complicated and all obstacle that i hope i could deal with. All this feeling i wish it just temporary and it doesnt stuck in me forever. Why love if losing hurts so much? We love to know that we are not alone. right??
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Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Tag from Elya

25 fact about me

sometimes when talking about facts, ppl might say "oooh, ive lots of facts about me", but when it comes to list them down, they like errrr.. so, thats me! when it comes talking about myself, i just don't know. seriously. but, this time. i'll try my best. here it goes~


1-i'm addicted to ESTRANGED!
2-i enjoy doing art, especially when it comes to abstract art~ everything that comes into mind, i'll sketch it.
3-i love my kipasSUSAHmati. yes, im the one who always tak pegi any reunion or gathering. but, seriously inside i just love them soo much.
4-i have a boyfriend which is my very bestfriend. *luv*
5-i've just completed my training and continued doing my apprenticeship at Telekom, KL.
6- hang out with friends is one of the things that i enjoy so much!
7-eating roti pisang with my bestfriend, panda bear is my favourite thing to do. :P
8-i can stand in front of the laptop than eating very delicious food in front of me.seriously. i like surfing internet!
9-if a place have pool, i can stay in the pool all day! i just love it~
10-i have lots of diary! since secondary school till now, i write everything in my dairy! it will become my memory~
11-i'm the youngest and weirdo in the family. have two sister which we have the same front name.
12-i miss my pillow talk members. seriously~
13-when it comes to something important, i usually get the task alone to completed it than being with my friends. seriously.
14-i am emotional person but when it comes to work. i try my best to avoid it.
15-i am easy to fall with someone. be careful~ however, i prefer to have a 'teman tapi mesra'. HAHA :)
16- i kept everything myself but when i just cannot hold it, i'll talk to my bestfriend or write it on my diary.
17-i love green, black and brown. :)
18-they say my body shape looks like fara fauzana. ye ke? drumstick? gosh!
19-i'm on my diet. avoiding rice , meat, chicken and egg. <--are you sure?? gosh!
20-i am very organize ppl, i hate being in the messy place. Headache!
21-when it comes to new friends, i will get very silent and shy. i'm not easy to make friends at the first place.
22-i just lost my favourite cousin last friday because of an tragic accident. i really miss him badly!
23-till now, at the age of 23 i still dun have any license! HAHAH :)
24-i want camera DSLR badly as i love taking pictures!
25- i want to get married before 2011. HAHAHAHA :)

Done.
Thanx to elya!
Tag?
Anyone who read this! your turn!!