heart :)

.life.love.strength.

mom.dad.sarah.surya.me :)

sape paling banyak buat aksi muke? *kembungkan pipi*mucungkan mulut*

mai __________ 

*bosan*

bukak2 laptop je, trus dpt wireless.celah mane tah punye wireless ni. alhamdulilah..FREE

*the fact is : i just miss them soooo much*

tua?

22 oktober, setiap tahun.

sakit kepala.

sakit pinggang.

demam.

selsema.

batuk.

pening.

mengidam macam-macam. *handphone baru, plis*

oh,sudah dua-puloh tiga!

tuakah?

boleh kahwin. kan?

*gedix*

p/s: happy birthday! Thanks pink poptone :) love u (:

bebelan kosong

lepas touch n go kt entrance kl sentral mesti stop kejap. amik paper free, belek2 kt classifieds punye page. tgk job kosong. ishk. "female and bumiputera wanted.skill in ms office and interesting personality" job apakah itu? mesti personal assistant. kalau tak pun, admin or clerk. lekeh2 pun receptionist. huhu. entah la. aku ni layak ke nk bergelumang dalam era secretary or admin? hmm..kurus? lawa? lemah lembut? aku xde satu pun dalam senarai tu. T_T

biarkan je la.bersyukur dgn apa yang ada. kan lagi elok? kan?

harini. 20 oktober. ade history from this date. my first crush punye birthday. yes. first. when i was just 12. gila kan? cintan cintun mase darjah 6. hehe. it was so awesome. seriously. frist love and crush. mmg la org ckp cinta monyet, tapi i guess it was memorable. all the kantoi dgn cikgu faridah (mase tu cikgu plg garang..), the dating thing mase both dlm kelab seni and night tuition class.. bahagianya. the best is we celebrate the birthday together. .he's on 20th and im on 22nd. just 2 days gap. hehehe.come to his house with a friend and i remember one thing, i just dissappeared from his sight only a minutes sbb going to restroom but he's searching for me like crazy. cewah. mmg rs klaka time tu as he's is the hot boys in school and i was feel like "wahh, dpt hot boys in school.gila la." also that time keep thinking, am i deserve? lawakah aku? ishk. wutever la. tu love story mase kecik2. who cares? hehe. but the best, till now we still friend. keep in touch through phone. :) now, he is an artist, nasyid group. not so famous, but okla :) bila ingat-ingat balik mase dulu, mesti rasa macam tengah terbang di langit. bahagiaa. happy birthday HALIM :)

rama-rama terbang dalam perut.

kisah2 cinta dulu tak boleh dibangkitkan. nanti budak songkok tinggi jeles. HAHAHA. nanti die off handphone. susah la. ishk. budak songkok tinggi tak penah marah, cuma dalam mase 2 tahun ni,sekali tu je die marah. he's exactly like my ayah tak reti nak marah but just only he cannot cook well like daddy. *ape kes, laki terer masak?* HAHAHA. my daddy thumbs up woo in cooking even can beat my mummy's cooking. ok. ok. cukup pasal itu. rama-rama dlm perut bila ingat budak songkok tinggi. tak kesah la he's younger than me or wutever ppl say about us we still stick together *poyo*. it just me yg emosi, tapi die cool je. kan? kan? hihi 

"and i dun care what they say, i'm gonna be with you. and i dun care what they do, i'm gonna be with you " jiwang pulak. eiii. layan jap je. :) merepek.merepek.kerepek. 

keadaan sebenar yang menghantui jiwa.

kebosanan melampau dalam office buat aku merepek bukan2. so, flashback la cerita cintan dulu2. sgtla tak senonoh.cinta yang no 1, no 2 no 3 sume revealed dlm otak.ishk ishk. tgh syok2 bebel dlm notepad, ttbe AGM lalu. haish. boss takde. sakan sambut deepavali. si ganesh sambut seminggu. mengalahkan boss. hampeh punye budak. ganesh takde, sunyi plak. kalau die ade mesti kecoh. wah wah. rindu ganesh ni. :D

IKLAN.IKLAN.

Siva (bossku) & Ganesh & Devaki & Ari and also to all indians in the world.

happy deepavali :)

 
eh.eh.lagi 3 jam nak balik. dtg office hanya utk online.*geleng kepale* projek takde lagi. yang lepas still pending. network tak jalan lagi. sape punye keje ni? haish. terpakse tgu network ok, bru la keje boleh buat. huhu. layan je. yeke layan? bangun pagi kol 6, kluar rumah kol 7, balik kje 5.30 tapi sampai rumah plg cepat pun kol 9. layan ke tu?  

penat aih.

p/s: ya, Tuhanku.bagilah kekuatan kepada hambamu ini. Amin~

kepala pening.otak pusing.

perasaan marah membuak-buak sudah lama hilang.dah tak marah lagi. dah malas nk fikir psl emo yang melampau-lampau.semua gara-gara manusia yang tak de otak pijak nyawa aku mase tgh solat. cermin mataku ialah nyawaku.poyo kan? tapi, itu la hakikat. tak ade spec, mmg merepek and mengarut je la keje. melilau tak kemana-mana. kerja pun tak fokus. confident level mmg akan automatic jadi low. emo pasal hal tu dah makin kurang sbb nyawa yang baru sudah di tempah (apakah ayat ni..mcm nyawa tu boleh beli je..) bukan, tapi spec yang baru dah ditempah dgn power spec yang tinggi gila.maka, mahal gila. bulan depan punya elaun kene cut off. bayar siket2 pd ibu terchenta. tak pelah. baru sket dah mengeluh. ishk. sabarye wahai hati dan duetku.

biarkan je la kisah spec mata patah utk kali ke 28 sejak dr sekolah menengah. pernah masuk lubang toilet. kene pijak. baling merata-rata terus patah. jatuh lubang tempat shower. kene bola. macam-macam hal. bila dah tak selesa nak pakai, beli baru. huhu. tima kasih kpd ayah yg sgt2 memahami. hehe. spec kali ni, kne berhati-hati. YA! *promise* (cross-finger) tak berani beb.

bila la nk berubah dgn perasaan emo yang tak pernah2 nak ilang. eventho mak dah nasihat mcm-mcm, but still emo tu still ade. mak ckp " jgn marah-marah, nnti kne darah tinggi.muda2 darah tinggi, susah nanti".. btul tu. tapi, aku mcm buat endah je. ishk. dgn harry pun same jadi mangsa. mak ckp " adik, jgn marah2 hairi tu, lembut2 sket. nanti die boring, kang kene tinggal". btul jugak tu. tapi, after 2 years he's ok je dgn my emo thing. hopefully la. entahlah. ive done lots of things to avoid emo. bukan avoid la, tapi reduce it. tapi, still mcm tu sbb bila da too mad takkan nk simpan. ive to let it out! seriously. bila simpan dlm ati, seksa. haishh..

emo emo. pening kepale kalau pk. tak semua bende nk cite pd org. tapi, pd budak songkok tinggi je berani cite. walaupun, die tak berapa nk memahami keadaan tu tapi die dgr je ape yang aku bebel. budak songkok tinggi, thank eh! bukan tak nak cite pd kawan-kawan, tapi tak ada masa yang panjang nk cite. mungkin ade setengah2 yang dah tau tapi not the whole story.

 kepale pening, otak pusing, tangan dan badan dah mengigil. 

mcm ni keadaan bila kekusutan dalam kepala tak dpt nk diluahkan.aargh! mcmni la keadaan bila kebebasan dalam diri tak dapat dilepaskan. semuanya kene menurut perintah . bila hidup terlalu dikongkong, mcm ni la jadinya. aku merepek tak tentu pasal. ayat dah tunggang langgang. hidup aku sgt terlalu dikongkong. walaupun, bakal mencecah 23 khamis ni tapi semua tu tak ada makna dan erti! bukan minta utk bersosial cuma hati seorang remaja ni tolonglah faham. aku pun ada kawan. bukan satu dua, tapi ramai. hmmm. cuma minta utk bersama -kawan kawan saje. itu je. walau apapun, ibu ayah akak tetap aku utamakan. *janji!*

ibu, tolonglah faham anakmu ini. ishk. 

thanx harry :)

Have you ever felt,

Like you were holding a fragile heart,

That could break any second,

And then it shatters,

And you don't know how to fix it?

Then your world goes wild,

With everything spinning but you,

You stand still and stare at the moment,

Not knowing what to say,

Not even paying attention anymore.

You want to say something to help the moment,

But tears are saying enough.

I want to hold the pieces of your broken heart,

And put it back to one.

I hold you close,

Hoping you can forgive me,

For hurting you so badly,

I tell you I love you,

And it's far from a lie.

I cry on your chest,

Apologizing again and again

You finally pull me away and lift my face up towards yours,

I look into your eyes,

Wanting to turn away,

But I'm forced by love to keep looking.

And you say the three words I longed to hear

::I love you::

You wipe away the tears,

Leaning forward to place a kiss upon my lips,

And you pull me away,

Holding me close as you can,

You tell me once more at the same time I tell you::

::143::

p/s: thanx harry :)

bad and best thursday of the week. apakah?

best and bad things happen at the same day.hmm.

de interview on thursday.position as QC. bukan queen control tapi quality control. tah pape. company ape? terpakse rahsia. hahaha. takde la. company bus je. location sangat la jauh extravaganza. puchong, s'gor. memula dah tertutup hati nak pergi sebab thinking of the place yg sgt jauh and susah nak pegi. tapi, ade orang tu baik hati sangat-sangat. sanggup volunteer nak hantarkan. at the same time, die nk buat surprise come to kl from johor. surprise kne cakap ke? hahahaha. at first, i thot die gurau2 je.so, i didnt take it seriously. but, after work hour on wednesday he text me he's on the way to kl. OMG. i am sooo speechless. ok, let me tell. this part is the best/good part, i mean he's coming to kl. gosh, i am sooooooooooo miss him damn much! sebab before this asyik jumpe like 1 hour and 15 minutes. ishk ishk sangat lah tak memuaskan hati. kan kan?so then, this time bleh spent time lame sket. heheh *evil* hehe. so, he drive from BP and arrive KL that night. meet him* best best* miss*miss* muah*muah* :) plus here, the advance birthday gift si-die bagi. sgt suke. eventho its pink. *OMG!* but, still i like it sooo much!

ok,the bad part is here. on thursday morning. bangun awal extra and ready nak pegi interview. seriously. i'm not prepare anything. just bring the CV and whatever they ask me to bring. the problem actually masing2 tak tao jalan. maka dengan itu, bantai je ikut alamat and stop at petronas tanye "kak, tau tak mne jalan ni" mmg cm haram la. si dia dah penat gile but at the end sampai at location before the interview time. huhu. then, the problem comes in mind. hati berbelah bahagi nak pegi interview ke tak. sebab jauh and rasa mcm tak worth it. the company banyak lelaki and the place is so ceruk. tau ceruk? huhuhuh. lepas call beberapa org, last-last pegi gak. si dia pon masuk teman g interview. the interview going well for just half and hour. the result dpt next week, but confirm tak dapat. who cares?!! hahaha. lepas interview, forward to alamanda for lunch. jaoh gila lunch. lepas lunch, dpt call suh amik cakes kt damansara. damn gila. mane tau jalan. from like 12.30 to 3.00 pm sesat. gila! si dia dah exhausted tahap maximum. muka da ketat gila. kaki dah sakit. huh! pusing-pusing tempat yg sama. sampai masuk penchala. tah haram jadah betul. lepas damansara pegi times. si-dia tgu kawan. lama like hell. kaki dia dah sakit and badan dah penat. pusing-pusing time cari barang. tapi, hampa tak ade yang berkenan. sedih! plus, we both have little argument.urgh! sedey *sob.sob* on the way nak blik dr times, dpt phone call kawan nak jmpe kt kg.bru. as we both dah sgt2 exhausted, we ask they to picked us at someplace sbb when night dah tak ingat jalan sgt. drpd menggilakan diri dgn sesat, better tunggu. hang out like till 11.30 and arrived wangsa around 12. suddenly, tiba2 teringat promise dgn some friend near home nk hang out. last2 ask the friend to come to the house. lepak2 depan rumah dgn si-dia till 1 a.m. that night we both sgt-sgt exhausted.so, tgk2 tv and tido mati. damn u sesat!!!

the next morning, si-dia terpakse bgn awal sbb nak hantar me and sis to work as our cousins, ok actually whole family is sakit mata. cuz she supposedly anta and going to work together.ishk ishk. haishh. si-dia hantar to lrt and straight going back to johor. *sob sob*miss you already* plus here, he again sesat when going back to johor that morning. hehehe. sian u sesat sorang2. but, at last sampai juga BP. weee~

actually sgt kesian kt si-dia. penat drive dr BP. then, menyusahkan si-die pegi sane sini dengan jalan yang tatao langsung, main redah je. membazir minyak merata-rata. kesian.makan minum yang tak tentu hala. kehabisan fulus yang unexpected.i'm little bit feel guilty about it cuz menyusahkan dia sgt-sgt. huhuhuhu. but, at the same time also thanx to si-dia buat surprise dtg kl. the advance birthday gift that he give! thanx sgt-sgt! he sacrifice his time to drive to kl and spent with me eventho it's limited sgt-sgt.si-dia hantar pegi interview, pusing-pusing kl sampai sesat. hehehe. thanx sgt2. suke suke *gedix* sorry ye dear kalau i susahkan u. hehehe. sorry sebab marah2 u in the car. sbb mase tu da give up cri jalan and we both damn exhausted. huhuhu. sorry sgt. nasiblah awak tu da biase dgn i. hahaha. *geli.geli*

The best and bad thing happen on the same day.rasenye bende2 mcm ni susah sgt nk berlaku dlm life. rasanye lah. kot. but, its an experience! ok la. both things happen in one day and sgt-sgt exhausted dgn lots of sux things happen but at least i spent time with him all day! yeay!! thats priceless dear!! miss you already.sayang kamu~

thanx for everything dear :)

p/s: i love u :)

happy birthday!

happy birthday mummy :)

Mrs.Rohaini Abdullah

Mother of three daughter. Wife to Hubby Ismail Alwi. Daughter of Abdullah and Nyah.

This wish for you Mother

Straight from the heart and sincere.

With more special meaning than words can impart...

May your day hold pleasures that your fondest of...

And remember each day you're thought of with Love.

Happy Birthday

thanks for being the greatest mother in the world

p/s: Love u :)