Fareeda : Nyata Jelita

segala macam tudung aku beli. dari HAJRA.paling feymes dan feveret is ARIANI. Then, comes to FAREEDA. cik pinut yang rekemen. menarik dan lawa. pegi cari butik FAREEDA. serious lawa. sebab tgk cik pinut pakai cantik. Maka, ia lawa lah. keh keh..

Jom vote officemateku Cik pinut. Cari kt FB, Fareeda..Nyata Jelita then like. Lepas tu, cari picture as below name Siti Shafinaz and click LIKE. senang je!

jom vote!!

selamat hari ibu

ibu

Rohaini Abdullah

A mother of three daugther, Maisarah Maisurya and Maizura

A wife to Husband Ismail Alwi

My mom and Daddy

Mom, masa Maisarah Wedding 25 Sept 2010.

its already late i guess to wish but who caresss...everyday is feel like mothers day.. parents day..kan kan? it just specific that 9th May 2011 is entitle as Happy Mothers Day. Mom, or at home i call her as Mak! Mak, adik love u soo much. I am forever remembered when u cry through the phone when i say that I was sick and admitted to ward and being so far away from you... I keep saying to you " Mak, i'm okay je la..xde ape.." but the fact is i am suffering alone at home..Hurm..I miss you mom......
Mom"Happy Mother's Day" means moreThan have a happy day.Within those words lie lots of thingsWe never get to say.
It means I love you first of all,Then thanks for all you do.It means you mean a lot to me,And that I honor you.
But most of all, I guess it meansThat I am thinking ofYour happiness on this, your day,With pleasure and with love



notakaki: love u mom.

be strong

sejak menjak lepas pulih dari sakit.ini ayat yang terima dari orang sekeliling dan paling mengejutkan ialah boss aku. " be strong mai.be confident. if you dont have the confident yet, it would developed day by day." ye lah bos!entah aku tatau nak cakap apa.lepas pulih, ayat nak marah tak ada dan hanya cuma ayat yang frustrated dan mengecewakan ( sama je kan). ayat itu je yang keluar dan terus meleleh air mata ni terlalu menahan marah, menahan perasaan dan bukan dendam cuma ini hak sebagai pekerja. ( obviously ini pasal kerja la okay?) so, be strong. yes! i am trying now! please lah okay! i think i've been bullied. not sure by who but from someone observation saying that i am toooo KIND. yeke? am i? entah. but, now i feel it. now i feel it that i'm just the black sheep. tapi, black sheep aku pon i bring the names of the company okay? please notice that! ingat tu.

day by day. i trying hard develop myself a self confidence to face true life after been suffering in the hospital. seriously i am traumatized. ive been off day from work for 3 weeks and when come back to office, i starting to blur, low confidence and kelam-kabut yang pasti. i wish i would built up the confidence to face my life. i know that life is such a lies but thats the fact that i need to face it. sedih kan? whatever it is life must goes on! face it mai! i wish that mom and dad would stay with me here, but i know it will never happen...homesick. be strong mai!.. mom and dad everyday keep remind me to take care of myself and tabahkan hati.. insyaAllah. i wish sister also here too taking care of me but it definitely not happen..the thing is i wish my BF is keeping me company or take care of me even we are so far away but it not happen actually which is i am so frustrated. i dont know whats on his mind? Motor? Photograph thingy? Studio? Shoot pictures? am i included? Am i? I wish i am but i never feel it. Not even once. sedih kan. orang yang kita sayang, yang kita harap kita dapat hidup dengan dia, orang yang kita sangka boleh jaga kita kala susah dan senang tapi hampa. hampa sangat. i feel like been left out. I love him so much but I am sad because of him. I only got him. Only him in my heart. Soo sad....

maizura,

do not be afraid to fail.

be strong.

everything happen is for a reason.

insyaAllah.

Hope and pray everything will be okay.

notakaki: image courtesy from google-google.

One Lovely Blog Award ( Edisi MC)

waktu-waktu sekarang kira macam waktu sakit aku.bukan nak official atau nak sangat sakit. tapi, memang tak berapa nak sihat. so. edisi MC. Sayda ada tag, blog award. Report pending masa MC dah selesai, so ada la free time sikit. nah!




lovely sangat ke ni? hik hik.

Here are rules to abide accepting this award

1. Post linking back to the person that gave you the award
2. Share 7 random things about yourself
3. Award 15 recently discovered blogs
4. Drop them a note and tell them about it

1. Post linking back to the person that gave you the award .camni ke sayda dino. nah!
2. Share 7 random things about yourself alamak. tujuh? banyak nye?

• hurm.baru-baru ni aku masuk ward.alhamdulilah da sihat. best sangat kat sana sebab SGF datang. sayda.ecah.affa.nani.shuze.nadiawani.norman.wanita. tenkiu sangat-sangat! (gaya mcm seronok je masuk ward..dem!)

• dulu berdua dengan kakak aku maisurya kat KeyEll ni.skang da sorang-sorang.agak susah la sebab bukan ada keta.takat menumpang. bosan.bosan.sebab tu dua 3 hari ni asyik melalak je sebab homesick.haish.

• AF da minggu keberapa tah.tapi, rumah kaca dekat AEON AU2 tu baru 2 kali pergi.padehal dekat nak mampos dengan rumah. eh, perlu ke? sebab aku jakun tgk artis2 ni..lawa dan ensem siot. dem!

• emo? memang da sebati dalam hati. tapi, berusaha untuk kurangkan marah ni.nasib xde HBP.aritu sakit. HBP aku normal je..nasib nasib. lepas ni tahan marah macam mana? setakat ni, nangis je la. macam pagi tad, aku marah sangat dengan sorang mamat ni. terus nangis. LOL. "cry cry if u stumble into a mess......"

• ive made lots of mistakes and sangat-sangat regret..kalau la aku boleh turn back the time kan? i wish i never knew him.seriously... knowing that person is just makes my life suffering and he keep detsroying my life. Pray and Hope that miracle will happen. Karma does exist. What you gives is what u get back. Allah itu Maha Kuasa. Ingat!

• teringat masa sekolah rendah. geng dengan budak OKU. belajar bahasa isyarat.macam-macam. sampai terbawak ke kelas, last-last kene ejek dengan budak laki.kuang ajo. sek ren dulu, pnah gaduh dengan cikgu kelas darjah 6 sebab aku tak dapat pegi jamuan kelas..sebab aku kene amik hadiah pelajar terbaik subjek apa tah. ada 2. wahh.berlagak. masa ni aku rasa jamuan makan penting dari amik hadiah mengarut yang takat kamus je. HAHA. masa sek ren ni, cinta monyet aku. darjah 4 kenal, darjah 5 bercinta sampai Form 1. fuh fuh.. yang pasti dia sangat hensem. HAHA

• lately ni, lagu glee -gwynelth paltrow (betul x eja? ) forget you tu dah berapa kali ulang sampai aku paksa anak spupu aku yang kembar tu ikut menyanyi dan menari..paksa sampai boleh. haha. nasib diorg comel, cuba kalau aku...huduh...

ok.cukup 7.yes

3. Award 15 recently discovered blogsapa nak tag.banyak gilo.
adik Zul.Mira.K.Fara.K.Yanie.Erin.ZukhirmanApis

4. Drop them a note and tell them about itkejap lagi lah...........tgk la. :P





notakaki: just to kill the time.

saya trauma

saya trauma.


saya trauma dengan keadaan sekeliling. sejak kejadian sakit masuk hospital saya jadi trauma. sumpah. setiap kali berada di luar kawasan bebas. saya pegang jantung saya.saya pegang paru-paru saya.saya cuba untuk tahan nafas supaya kurang habuk, asap yang saya hidu. saya cuba mengagahkan diri saya. saya cuba. hari ini hari ke-2 saya berkerja dan saya sedang makan hati dengan team saya dan boss saya. saya sudah sihat tapi masih dalam recovery process. saya tak faham kenapa boss macam celaka sangat semalam dan hari ini back-up saya macam sial. opps. tad saya meluahkan perasaan dengan K.Una. rupanya banyak cerita lain yang terjadi selama 3 minggu saya tak berkerja.hari ni saya suffering period pain yang melampau tapi saya gagahkan diri untuk siapkan report saya.
saya trauma dan saya kesal. ada sesetengah pihak yang mengambil kesempatan dgn saya.saya baru lepas sembuh dan baru juga dapat bonus. tak ada plan pun bonus tu, tapi saya dah labur ke mana entah. nak tolong dan sayang punya pasal. melayankan diri pun lebih kurang aje. saya ni sapa tah pada dia atau saya je yang rasa digunakan sekarang?

bila cakap sayang, saya rasa hipokrit.sangat.


saya trauma dengan kehidupan saya.







notakaki: macam mana saya nak cari seorang suami yang persis ayah saya. semua boleh diharap. mana nak cari?

Siapa mintak sakit ni? Siapa?

petang tadi appt dgn specialist doc. ok. Doc tapi Dato'. So, called him Dato'. banyak bende dia explain plus aku tanya macam-macam pasal kejadian lepas. sinus lepas Ct Scan, ada but tak serious. X-ray, ada bronchitis. Kalau aku google bronchitis dalam wikipedia, ada related to viral infection. Mungkin dari situ lah bacteria atau virus yang menyerang buat batuk kahak dan selsema aku berdarah. Dato' pulak suruh aku refer pada Doc E & T, Dr Aminudin yang so-coincidently is NadiaWani's uncle. HAHA. kene refer die sebab Dato suggest aku utk operate tonsil aku yg bermasalah tu. As adv dari Doc tak bertauliah di sekeliling aku bak kata Nadiawani mostly tak bagi aku buang tonsil ni, So she advice me to consult Doc 1st no matter what and then baru discuss macam mana next plan. yes, betul jugak ckp Nadia. hurm. pasal bronchitis tu, aku perlukan orang or Doc yang boleh explain bagi aku faham. Aku ni Doc aku Dato' tapi aku mcm bangang je bila depan dia. HAHA. kes sel darah merah aku pulak satu lagi. RBC lebih dari WBC masa aku sakit aritu. sebab aku G6PD. apa itu? google. and becoming Dr shuze sangat terkejut sbb aku ada bende ni sbb selalunya happen to the boys, male. very rare pada girls. Nak buek camano, since I was born. Haih. G6PD ni ada allergic macam-macam. yang pasti aku tak boleh kene ubat gegat, makan kacang parang, ubat other than Dr prescription, spray ridsect dan ada list yang sepatutya. If langgar pantang larang jugak, one of the effect is causes RBC count aku la problem. Kalau nak explain, nantilah.

pening dengan penyakit sendiri.aku tak pernah mintak. G6PD tu since born. tonsil problem since i was primary school then. RBC, bronchitis, Viral Infection? Tak pernah sesekali mintak dalam hidup ini. Sumpah. Asthma? Itu satu lagi kes sejak secondary school when i was exposed much to dust. Alhamdulilah asthma kurang dah sekarang.

banyak pulak list penyakit. sapa mintak? Tuhan bagi. Ini semua satu dugaan dalam hidup. bak kata BF, Tuhan suruh kita beringat bila kita ditimpa malang begini. ya Allah, kuatkan lah imanku menghadapi segala dugaan dalam hidup ini.

ya Allah..

the thank you part 2

thank you part two

thank you goes to my BF, my sayang. sepanjang saya sakit, he is very worried. I know he having problem with the transportation, but die gagah jugak dgn his brother car. He came along from Muar with Faliq. Teman di Hospital. Walaupun kejap sebab he came at the time I discharge but I really appreciate and glad that you came sayang. That night, he take care of me and make sure i take my meds and have a good rest. The next morning, we take our breakfast together and get something for lunch and have a walk just to make my mind free as I was hospitalized and stay at home almost 2 weeks. So, I need fresh air. Thank you sayang. I love u so much.

Dear BF,

i love u so much.

the thank you

sepanjang 3.5 hari di hospital. i was lucky and blessed being visited by friends, cousins and relatives. bertuah badan. tima kasih banyak yang datang melawat. kedatangan korang makes me happy and cheer up my day. Terima Kasih ya Allah.

SGF yang datang. sayda.wanita.affa.nani.ecah. norman also, he is taking the pic.

shuze came by when i'm taking my lunch. also with her is Nadiawani. Tq korang!

The most precious and ya Allah, aku berterima kasih dikurniakan ibu dan ayah yang memahami. Mak ayah dua kali datang, once in the middle of the week and 2nd is when i admit to Hosp. Tenkiu mak ayah! I love u sooo much!

Mak setia menunggu. Ayah juga. They both stay a night with me after my sis surya take care of me at first two nights. Then, she go to Shah Alam for work.

My sis sarah and Fendi, they mms out picture and wish to get better soon. Tq sarah and Fendi.

My sis surya and little Jaja. Maisurya, take care of me 2 days and stay night with me. Tq maisu! i love u!

The most thankful to Mak Long, Kak Ween, Abg Nuar and little twins who always there for me. Who sent me to hosp, clinics and so many more. It was priceless. Tq All. Tq MakSu Gayah and Pak Usu also K.Lim and the boys who come visiting me. There goes Yanti also come visit me. Tq Zukhirman, K.june and K.pinat yang tolong masa awal-awal sakit esp Man, Tq banyak-banyak sebab tlg settlekan masa hari sakit. To everyone wishes for better, thank you a million. Tq mendoakan saya sembuh. Alhamdulilah dan saya bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi kerana masih hidup dan sihat. Amin.

sesungguhnya sakit itu penghapus dosa.

the cure

sambungan entri sebelum ni.

after a few days, my body temperature back to normal. BP pun normal. Doc came in to the ward and inform that i can be discharge. Sangat sangat happy! Eventho kene jugak last antibiotics at that evening kol 6.00pm, i was discharge at night . At this time, my BF just arrived from Muar with Faliq. Thank you love!

sebenarnya saya diagnose as Viral Disease. but this is more general. If more specific aku tak sure but confirm virus is infection in my blood and my lungs which makes White blood cells counts greater than red blood. Tak normal okay. And after a few meds and treatment, blood count back to normal. I was official normal and stable but still need a precaution especially if go out to public, need to wear mask. oookay! freak but i have to do for my health. aite? Plus, i cannot simply take any meds from anyone and need to have Doc prescription. I also have to stops taking jamu and whatsoever. Even vitamins and etc, i need to break for a while. And after settle up the bills, need to pay 242.50 and selebihnya by PMCARE and get my result and my meds, I ready to take off!!

in kat ward. masa ni dah bersemangat sikit. Alhamdulilah.

my bed.my ward.419. single room. Thats my mom!

this is the meds that need to take constantly. banyak siot.tak tgk dalam plastic lagi.T_T

setelah 3.5 days in Specialist Hosp Ampang Puteri, i am okay now and still Doc gives a week for rest. Mom da suh pegi keje, while boss said to rest a week and early May started working. ok. So, I decide to rest at home. Mom and dad went back to johore after I discharge, while my BF is waiting for me until the next day. Thank you sayang.

Alhamdulilah.

the pain

when the pain goes bad...

sambungan entri sebelum ni

bila sampai di Specialist dalam jam 4.00 ptg, terus berjumpe dgn Dr. tak ada appointment so, need to wait. Then, goes my consulation along my aunt also in the room. After checking and discussion, he decide to admit me to the ward. After submit letter, need to wait available room. As room is full, wedecide to go back home. Around 9.00 pm, got a phone call to come to Hosp and admit to my ward. My aunt, my cousin along with little wawa is waiting for me until the nurse came to do whatever they supposed to do. Meanwhile, mom, dad and sis surya is on the the way to my place. Masa awal ni, temperature body from 40.8 and reduce to 39.8, sikit je.. so, i am restless and just lay down. Sumpah tak larat. Badan terkulai. Around 10.30 pm, Nurse came in for finding the lineto water drip. Ok. Left hand, attempt 2 times but failed. So, proceed to right hand ( around my wrist) success but a little bit suffer.

right hand.

that night. my sis surya teman me whole night. Kesian. dah la tak prepare nak stay. Super cold in the ward. Every 5 hour, nurse came in to check temperature, BP and many more. On the next morning, I still in the ward..rest. after taking breakfast and meds, they call up for X-ray for my lungs. At this time, i feel so relieve as Doc came by at the evening inform that i dont need water drip but need to take lot of water by myself. After x-ray, i taking my bath and sangat la lega! rimas with my own smell. HAHA. so, just restless in the ward. At this time, i cough a lot and flu a lot and the scary thing is my sputnm ( kahak) and my hingus is bleeding. I ask Doc, he inform it because of my virus infection in my blood. I was diagnose as viral diseases, which virus attacking my blood and infection also in my lungs. My white blood cells counts is greater that red blood cell. As i have allergic, G6PD i am specific in meds. Suspect, the blood count and infection is due from my meds that take before this is wrongly given by Doc and the main cause of virus is through my tonsil is swelling super big. U know what, that i unable to eat anything other than porridge because of my tonsil.

dinner day ke berapa tah. porridge saja ok.

breakfast : oatmeal and bread with milo

my last lunch : with little twins

last day dinner : porridge

setiap hari masuk ubat antiobiotik ( sangat high conc) and antidot ( tak sure apa, untuk prevent cloth). bila masuk je, aku rs mcm nk menjerit..sebab super sakit.. itu guna line cucuk sebelah kanan. agak suffering beberapa hari. masuk hati ke 3, aku dah tak boleh tahan. nurse cakap kene buat line baru, sebelah kiri. meremang. kalau ikut, da berapa kali cucuk dengan cari line tak jumpe, dengan amik darah beberapa kali. memang suffering. so, at last line baru sebelah kiri.

line at left hand. last antibiotic masuk. Nurse cakap line ni perfect sbb blood yang kluar show that it perfect. lega. so, total up is 9 cucuk for both hand. suffering.and masa hari ke 2 ke ke 3, i have to undergo CT Scan, menakutkan. selalu tgk dalam HOUSE je. ni bila kene sendiri scary. tak sakit cuma trauma tgk bende alah tu pusing2 atas kepala. scan ni for check either i have sinus or not and Doc inform ada sinus but not serious. lepas beberapa kali antibiotics, scan and x-ray what is the result? How my infection going on?

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