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Siapa?

Siapa?


Entah.

Eh, aku x?



p/s: Siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedasnya.

forbidden lov.

jadikan aku yang kedua..buatlah diriku bahagia. walaupun kau takkan pernah. ku miliki selamanya. p/s: ouch!

when happiness is just temporary....

when happiness is just temporary..then, goes my feet turn blue..

its true when ppl say, jgn seronok sangat kang ade la bende suwey jadi.YA!!!

weekends aritu mmg bahagia je.jumaat malam, free dinner TGI Friday and movie. mmg bahagia. lagi-lagi bila ada orang belanja. birthday claim actually. worth it la kan. he just like my secret admirer ( gila perasan x? but betul weyh! haha) TGI Friday ni pon dr FB, sbb die tau all the update from FB. Thats y, end up dinner at here. sweet kan. gentleman and best sgt ok!. no controversy ok? he just a friend who is too nice. weekh. then, goes saturday. i'm out with a friend. friend kah? scandal? nah!. it just an infatuation or confirm its not a love! yes. he just too good and all the compliments, so sweet of u. bahagia. walk and talk. movie marathon. awesome. i just feel the happiness. A few ppl keep saying bad things about him ok ,most of it..i just think that he just being honest and not a pretender. die ok la. :) i like! ok, dasar flirty yang membuatkan aku happy. tak salah kan kalau happy? happy ke menggedik ke? wutever la. i just love it! .on saturday night, just rest at home and keep smile on bed thinking back what had happen past 2 days.dream on baby!

sunday is the day.lazy bum. mmg superb malas. bangun pagi,just kemas bilik and continue snorring back.petang, just continue with online training and melepak dan merayau-rayau dari living room ke dapur. bosan but i just dont know why i was that happy by doing those silly things. haish! then, bila petang.. play around with the babies. ok, kemuncak.

those twins main belon.i'm just join and make them laugh. bila start belon tu ditendang-tendang, maka the aunty also tendang. but, unfortunately tertendang or tersepak dinding. bila kena, terus terduduk dan masuk bilik and menjerit nak gila.ok, sakit. tapi, jeritan diselang-seli dgn ketawa. sbb, OH DEM! stupid me! silly me! how come boleh tendang dinding. but when the time, im suffer on bed holding the feet. the babies keep around me saying "mii, atit..duuhh "means, mami, sakit..aduh.. haha. there goes the scenery smpai tengah malam.. looking back the feet, sudah kembang mcam belon. get some ice and put it on and afterwhile terus tido. when wake up in the morning, there goes big scream!! OMG! its turning blue!!!!

my feet just turn blue.blue.blue.

still working today, ignore the feet and just concentrate on work smpai macam nauseous gila sbb the feet keep on disturbing me. denyut-denyut and blue thingy. haish.ade possibility tak nk retak? entah. need to check with docs tmorow.

moral of the story: behave when u play with kids. dont act like kids when u r already an adult. WTF!!

p/s: he call me mye baby. ( alasan, sbb mcm baby.main belon..) LOL

bodo.

credit by ~SyntheticParadox

hari jumaat sepatutnya jadi hari paling indah dalam hidup.for sure la sebab esok sabtu, hari minggu dan hari berfoya-foya. tapi, aku hari jumaat.hari tak berapa nak indah.

pagi-pagi aku da emosi.touching.berdebar.segala macam la.aku x pasti kenapa. mungkin keadaan da mmg tersurat mcm ni, atau aku je yg mcm ni atau sebab aku dah hampir dengan bendera merah. mungkin-lah.

hari ni.memang dah plan.petang mmg balik trus ke bukit jalil, naik bas 7.30 ptg.maka, pakaian pon kene simple dan tak berapa nk selekeh. so, sarung baju customer ni eventho ak tak keje dgn diorg tapi aku support network diorg. ok? sila paham. pakai baju ni pon jadi spekulasi. kalau dia takde, mmg bahagia. dia ada je, die pelik. aku bukan maybank pon.<--ayat dia dalm bahasa dia yg dia ingat aku x paham, padehal aku sgtlah paham.cuma xnak show off je. die mmg bodo. si busuk tak mandi pagi yang bodo. bodo. bodo. satu hari nanti Tuhan balas kat kau. si busuk yang tua. ( mmg marah betul..) dia siap conversation dgn mamat busuk depan aku ni, dgn harapan aku x paham. tapi, aku paham.die salah. die terlalu berharap tinggi dgn sesiapa pun.aku rasa die ingat die tu Tuhan kut. kan? so, die bodo. si busuk tua yg tak mandi pagi dan bodo dan ingat dia Tuhan. mmg shitto.

baju ni aku pakai sebab senang.kang aku pakai Tshit hardrock pegi keje.kecoh.tshirt Maybank ni aku xharap sgt nk pakai pun.tapi, sebab nak balik kampung. kau dtg dgn punjabi, padehal kau bukan india pon.konon2 satu malaysia, tapi kau dalam office sgt RACIST! serius sumpah. dalam corporate condition yang aku duduk selama ni, mmg semuanya RACIST.aku rasa mana-mana pon racist kan? mmg tah pape. PM patutnya takyah buat 1 Malaysia tu, merugikan. tak semua support, 50% je. yang lain sume tak suke. percaya lah.

issue ke-2.aku geram dgn mamat busuk satu lagi.dah la liaise je dgn aku.bukan direct customer pun.tapi, apsal part kau aku nak kene buat? mcm sial kau tau tak? sial.sial.hari ni bukan main call-call, mcm2 busy. semalam, siap pegi minum-minum, aku terkontang-kanting buat keje kau.mcm bodo kan kau? mamat bangsa kau ni mmg kaki putar kan? xyah nk cakap la. satu dunia tahu. mmg kaki putar. org tgh buat keje, kau pegi sibuk monitor kenapa? mmg lah akan ada part yg down.kau ni saja buat issue kan? sial.sial.

ah, arini aku mencarut je.mmg konpem nak bawak naik bendera merah.mmg yakin.dengan keadaan perut yang asyik meminta-minta, mcm kebulur dahsyat.tensen.abis duet sebab dia.layankan aje perut ni bukan selalu di mcm ni. dengan perut pun nk emo.WTF mai! ok. eventho most of the time macam shitto, tapi happy things also happen. Thanks to my dear BF and friends, for the support and jokes that u make smile.(poyo..geli sial)

p/s: aku nk buang baju ni.

never be the same

Do you come here much? I swear ive seen your face before.Hope You don't see me flash but I cant help but want you moreBaby tell me whats your story I aint shy don't you worryIm flirtin' with my eyes, I wanna leave with you tonight.Do you come here much? ive gotta see your face some more

Night, Don't ever let me go. i will never be the same, if we ever meet again.

crdt to Nsoroma79

i hope so

p/s: dedicate to you know who you are. *wink*

u meant well?

what you say that you only meant well?


I don't want you to leave me. though you caught me cheatin'I really need you in my lifeWhen the roof cave in and the truth came outI just didn't know what to doBut when I become a star we'll be living so largeI'll do anything for youLet me in and give me another chance.I know I should of treated you better, me and you were meant to last forever So baby..what you say?

i'm sorry

p/s: 143

nak salahkan sape?

entah.emo lebih-lebih

apesal entah. kadang-kadang rasa mcm nk membunuh pon ada. lepas baca buku tu, menjadi-jadi marah ni.menjadi-jadi pulak air mata ni. makin lama makin laju pulak keluar. haih. entah ape aku pikir. makin di-story kt budak songkok tinggi, menjadi-jadi pulak air mata ni. haih.

sebenarnye, ape yang aku nk utk puaskan hati ni?

salah buku ke yang aku baca yg sepatutnya utk motivasi diri tapi jadi lain atau aku mungkin yg pikir negative side? entah. tak sure. bila baca, lagi mcm-mcm aku pikir.

hidup ni bila tak ada arah tuju atau target jadi mcm ni la. macam aku. sumenye tak sure.

nk salahkan buku ke salah sendiri?

tak boleh pakai

minggu lepas, da bertekad nak kurangkan kemarahan. macam-macam dah fikir dlm otak. siap tengok ceramah motivasi dalam tv. berusaha nk kurangkan emo ni.
kelmarin, semangat dgn mak pegi cari buku motivasi kt kedai buku. puas pusing-pusing, belek-belek buku yang mcm2 jenis penulis. pening jadi. haih. sebabkan, masa agak limited nak balik kl terpakse batalkan niat nk beli buku tu tapi, hati ni masih lagi dgn prinsip nk kurangkan emo dan kemarahan ni. *usaha* *usaha*
tiket bas dah habis.kakak kaunter tolong carikkan tiket balik kl. ulat jual rm40, mahal gila. tapi, kakak yg baek hati jual 33. ok la tu. cakap 4.30, tapi haram jadah bas gerak lembap gile. dah la seat belakang sekali, duduk dgn outsider yang sakan mengurat minah senegara dia kt sblah. suara kuat nk mampos. bila bas da nk gerak, mulalah dua ekor tu nk turun hisap rokok. dengan yakin aku jerit " oi, kan bas nak gerak. yang pegi trun tu apesal. duk diam2 je la.dah la menumpang kt negara org. buat la cara menumpang..aargh" pastu sambung dgn bebelan aku yang tak berhenti-henti sbb geram dah lambat bas nk gerak, nk smpai KL kol brape.dah la tgh tak sihat. perasaan emo ni tak bleh nk tahan. tak boleh pakai betul la, prinsip aku konon nk kurangkan emo. haih.
tak boleh pakai.
lain kali bile kita nk buat sesuatu perubahan tu, just buat je. jgn ckp. kang tak jadi. macam aku. harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi. kecewa dgn diri sndri.



p/s: emo oh emo. silalah berambus dlm badan ni. plz. *im begging*

balik raya yang suwey

Terlalu banyak insiden raya yang berlaku dpt hidup aku. ada yang indah, ada yang mcm sampah. ya, sampah. tahun ni, kali pertama aku berpuasa di KL sbb kerjaya yang tak seberapa. kerja tak penat, tapi perjalanan yg jauh buat aku setiap hari aku tido jam 9. inilah kali pertama tido awal gila. kol 9 dah kong. biarlah. badanku letih, manje betul dia ni. ishk

raya kali ni balik dr kl naik bas. tiket beli last minit. ade pulak. musykil dah sebenarnya.yelah, kot2 bas tambahan or bas persiaran. tapi, sebab nak raya balik je la and that abg kaunter said it is not bas tambahan. hmmm.layan je. the real day and date, pegilah aku kat bukit jalil. leceh betul, tapi layankan aje. the first bad thing happen to me that time was i was bitten by something i'm not sure what is it. maybe its a bee or wutever and slowly my mouth was swollen mcm shit gila. then ,ppl in the bus keep asking "dik, bas nk g johor mane satu..." and etc.so, im just sengih mcm kerang busuk and nodding je. plus the suwey thing was the BUS! mmg la bukan bas tambahan, but bus ting tong. the bus is like rapid kl punye bas. mmg btul2 suwey that night. seriously. plus again, when im in the bus at first dah setting elok nk duduk kt seat tu. suddenly the bus driver as me to transfer other place sbb bla bla bla. mls nk layan. dah la that time, my mouth yg bengkak tu make me just sound like "hmm..hmm." damn btul. mcm lembu! the place then oh, gosh sempit gila. the girl yang stay beside me, like put all her stuff and at last im just sit half of the seat. mmg damn gila la. %#@()*&(! thank God, that my dearly Harry yg keep comforting and persuade me through the phone. Thanks syg! kalau u takde, mmg dah EMo je. heheh :P

when it is nearly nk smpai the location. i'm oversleep and terbangun trus sampai. at first, tak recognise langsung my own place but after detect certain place i just like "oh, dah smpai rupenye!". that girl next to me dah la bukan org johor. damn btul. nasib aku tak terlajak pegi tempat lain. haish. useless sungguh! sampai2 rumah, rushing pegi mirror tgk the progression of my mouth! budus. im sooo ugly. my sister ckp "rilex la, cool la u dik, like angelina jolie" mcm siot je! my mom very worried and ask me "hey, dik..cpt2 letak minyak..tuam2 sket. dah nak raya ni.." yes, thats the answer yg make me feel relieved. love u mom! daddy pulak keep saying " abislah spoiled family picture tahun ni..huhu" haishh...sabar je laaaa.

raya kali ni tak berapa nk feel. entah la. after i lost my cousin and busy with the working placement at KL make me like tak de mood nk raya but still i'm trying hard to just go with the flow of the preparation at home. my family dah ready mcm2, takkan nk ignore je kan? so, how about just layan je, ok? im not hypocrite but sometimes pretending to be happy is considered la and it depends on situation. suke2 je buat conclusion. hehehehe.

so, whatever happen in life i will just keep going. LIFE MUST GO ON. kan?

1st syawal comes in a few minutes, so to all Muslim in the world wish you

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

Wish you may have the Success,prosperous and Happiness in your life. May Allah bless you in this auspicious day of eid mubarak. Amin~

p/s: wish goes especially to KIPAS, heroes 9903, UniMAP Material Eng 05/09, GEMS STC '02 esp GREEN GLOBAL and Ainol, Eni, Fadil, Sapik, In and Intan :) Special to my syg Harry *MISS you* :)

silly me

silly me.

careless ke silly or cuai? mane satu yg betul? ke semua tu same je.

ade ape2 komen?

ni sume kes pagi tad.bangun niat nk pegi library.everything were went fluently. pack the laptop. backpack full of books. then, walk ahead to the bus. half on the way. keep wondering. "apesal beg laptop ni mcm ringan?". and i "emm..xpelah".. few minutes then, "OMG.dem!!". bring the laptop, not the battery and plug.. that time, i was already half way to kangar. specifically to the library. keep wondering, whut shud i do? takkan nk balik hostel balik? quickly msg housemate. rembat plug from alin's laptop and thank God that, bying also nk pegi kangar. already at kangar at 10 a.m, few hours wait for the stuff start work at 11.30. uuh.. look.kinda waste lots of time. i guess. supposedly, i cud start my thesis early than that. aite? but, its already happen. i cudnt turn back or freeze the time. *wish i was HIRO NAKAMURA in girl version* commercial break :). wutever happen, thesis must goes on. :)

ok,look! again. silly me. i still got time to update the blog eventho the time is totally limited. got to at least finished one chapter today, cuz need to rush catch the bus today back to hostel. all the tuan-punye kereta went back to hometown. LOL. somehow, need to be independent rite? uh, i dun mind. seriously. sorry, this entri full of sayur-campur language. ok, malay plak. :P entri kali ni, tatau la. otak dalam ni mahu tulis melayu, tap di-sebabkan tgh buat thesis final year project yg dlm english. so, tangan menulis dalam 'english'..otak berkata 'melayu'. seriously. nampak mcm ade konflik antara otak dan anggota badan. ape nak jadi?

silly me.damnit.

notakaki: tgh buat chapter 3.methodology.aku nk buat cerita bohong psl fyp aku.baru dpt extra marks. wOot! *melompat gembira*