with the beautiful girls.

it was unplanned. as before, every monday was a hectic and stressfull day ever among the other day in a week. but, fortunately this monday 11th april it was a loving day and awesome. as for me, after dating on weekends and early morning he send me direct to the office. then, goes weekdays so-called training, memang superrrr awesome. walk around times square, a little shopping.. shoes and shirts.. the girls catch up a skirts and a few clothes. hey, it was heaven ever. then, after shopping n etc there goes our lunch. yummy.... its kinda bit hard to decide as need to consider halal as i'm muslim, but fortunately both of them is okay. last-last hui yi decide johnny's! yes. yummy and the most important is we r FULL. Alhamdulilah..

johnny's times square.

here we come

after few decision and tadaa. aik.ada telo 2 biji. tulen ke tidak? haha

fish ape tah and meat balls. layan aje. sbb dah lapa.

with karen tan!

with hui yi..

busy cooking kan? kan? heheh

waiting... (perut pun dah bunyi..)

stil waiting....

after the meal.

with the beautiful girlssss...
image courtesy from Karen Tan album. tq karen. not yet upload from my phone.




notakaki: may God bless us. Amin.

bitter heart

Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground, 
Children spinning around till they fall down down down. 
I wait for you: it's been two hours now, 
You're still somewhere in town, 
Your dinners getting cold. 
I rest my case you are always this late, 
And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round, 

Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside, 
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide, 
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile, 
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.

And then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday, 
So tell me whats her name. 
Doo doo da dum, doo doo da dum, doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum. 
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside 
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide, 
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is just getting a little fragile, 
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine.

 image courtesy from deviantart (uploathe)

p/s: zee avi -bitter heart 

menjadi seorang perempuan yang lasak

aku rs sgt pening kepala memikirkan msg yg dpt dr miza a.k.a bisneswoman  dgn tagline *where health and beauty is combined* ecececeh. mesraaaa~ :)

ok. balik semula pd tajuk entri.

nak jadi perempuan yang lasak? lasak dr segi ape? msg dr miza agak menghantui pemikiran aku sampai terbawa-bawa ke tido n mimpi yang sgt mengarut. aku ingat mimpi tu tapi tak reti nak explain dan story. biarlah. 

lagi beberapa jam nak ke interview, sempat lagi online n blog. nak meluahkan perasaan kt ayah kt rumah ni, die bz ke hulur ke hilir menjadi seorang surirumah yang berjaya. mengemas rumah. membasuh baju. good job ayah! hehe (aku bukan pemalas, tapi sbb nk prepare for interview jadi tak kisah lgsung psl rumah *alasan*)

interview kali ni aku tatau kenape nk berdebar sgt. bakal diinterview bsame2 dgn faiq a.k.a coursemate mase kt perlis dulu. the best psl msg from her is, the panel want the candidate for this position to be like more active, 'lasak' and 'kental' (ayat miza). obkos la, dah factory. takkan nak lembut2 dan mengada-ngada plak. kan? kan? tapi, sebab dah stay kt kl and the environment sume mcm high class and office, how to adapt dgn factory punye environment ni? pening aku! sumpah. awkward. 

sedang bertungkus lumus membaca yang perlu psl factory ni. menyimpang jauh sikit dgn ape yang aku blaja dlu. seramik! blaja pun sket-sket je dulu. Tsk. T_T nk buat cmne ni. layan je la. google sane-sini. tulis notes. print cv. print notes. rase mcm student plak. rindu plak mase student. 

bosan.google jap. 'menjadi seorang perempuan lasak'.

"bukan tidak boleh melakukannya, cuma agak terbatas. Dan saya juga tidak kata mahasiswa wanita tidak boleh melaksanakan tugasan seperti lelaki. Boleh...tapi terhad."

dgr tu.terhad.bukan tak boleh. so, maizura. you can do it! ok?!

p/s: teringat body builder pompuan. macam tu lasak ke kental? konpius.

what am i thinking?

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it
I was burned
I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

Wont you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes
I'd like to stay...
STAY



Katy Perry - thinking of you



p/s: meaningful song. dedicate to someone. you know who you are. :P

Can I miss you? Its only for today.

a little unwell

********

All day

Staring at the ceiling

Making friends with shadows on my wall

All night

Hearing voices telling me

That I should get some sleep

Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on

I'm feeling like

I'm headed for a

Breakdown

I don't know why

I'm not crazy

I'm just a little unwell

I know, right now you can't tell

But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see

A different side of me

I'm not crazy

I'm just a little impaired

I know, right now you don't care

But soon enough you're gonna think of me

And how I used to be

Me

Talking to myself in public

Dodging glances on the train

I know I know they've all been talking 'bout me

I can hear them whisper

And it makes me think there must be something wrong

With me

Out of all the hours thinking

Somehow

I've lost my mind

I'm not crazy

I'm just a little unwell

I know, right now you can't tell

But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see

A different side of me

I'm not crazy

I'm just a little impaired

I know right now you don't care

But soon enough you're gonna think of me

And how I used to be

I been talking in my sleep

Pretty soon they'll come to get me

Yeah, they're taking me away

I'm not crazy

I'm just a little unwell

I know, right now you can't tell

But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see

A different side of me I'm not crazy

I'm just a little impaired

I know, right now you don't care

But soon enough you're gonna think of me

And how I used to be ..

unwell

Matchbox 20

*******

this is serious

i'm not crazy

i'm not insane

i'm not mad

i'm just a little unwell

cuz

its been 4 months i'm not seeing my songkok-tinggi boy

:'(

Date with a dream

"One day I'll wake up in my sleep
That would be my date with a dream
The world will be my playground
The birds will be my friends
Time will never end

One day I'll wake up in my sleep
No television, no walls, no small talk
No sound but my jiggles and small footsteps
And a light breeze of wind rushing through my kite
Time will never end

One day I'll wake up in my sleep
That would be my date with a dream
After a while I'll get tired and sit to rest
I'll put my head to rest on the grass
And wake up to my sleep

One day I'll wake up in my sleep
And sleep until I wake up
After my date with a dream"

******

is it my prom date is just a date with a dream.

only dream.

prom date?

wutever he is.he's just a prom date for just one night.

serious.nk gelak besar (HAHAHAHAHA :D)

footnote: the picture, credit to alida and wei kiat. spontaneous pohotography.

lost by words and faith

"The world slows down

But my heart beats fast right now

I know this is the part

Where the end starts
I can't take it any longer

Thought that we were stronger

All we do is linger

Slipping through my fingers

i hate this part right here.."

heaven knows why lately ni, I more like alone.not jiwang.melayan feeling or what. too much in head.all sorts of feeling. angry? snarl? happy? Emo? annoyed? tired?all feelings I sense it now.serious.its kinda hard to explain though. aku tak tipu ok.I sense like could not focus in a things which is the most important is FYP!oh, God! gimme guts! hey, all of the things that happened around me eventhough it its false or fact,it in fact of course stir still my mind.LOL

counting just a few months left to spent with friends, juniors, lecturer and even mak cik cleaner or mak cik guard!yes, left not less than 2 months to spent time together. unless, to continued master.yes,spent time with everyone list above.oh, gosh..im talking nonsense.ok, xmau sedey2 la.think back all what everything that we've done previously.. yes, its kinda makes me cry.sumtimes :'(

yes, i hate the part that the fact i'll finished my study only a few months. rase mcam tak puas.seriously. eventho byk battle and kontroversi that ive made before, somehow its kinda make me satisfied and the memory of studying here. also the scandalous. uh? wutever. but, seriously.

"Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be"

*******

ok,actually.bukan seperti yang diatas aku nk luahkan dlm entri kali ni.tak kesah la nk ckp aku jiwang or ape saje.aku terima.kali ni aku mmg jujur dgn diri sendri.

aku actually banyak kali rasa mcm ni. ahli keluarga sendri. kawan-kawan sndri. suma manusia yang berada di sekeliling aku. sumpah. aku rasa mcm2. sampai satu tahap, aku tak terluah. pertanyaan tentang entri sebelum ni. ya, aku sgt2 emosional smpai aku tak reti nk luahkan dgn kata. aku redha dan let it just go with the flow. let it faded with time. ape2 je la. entri sebellum ni mmg meaningful. the lyrics sgt2 meaningful. have you ever feel like u kinda expressed all out, but u can't? u speechless. u stun. incurving. ermm.this is how i feel. right now.

i lost by words.

actually, aku mls nk merepek2 dlm entri kali ni.sekadar yang perlu.aku hilang dgn kata-kata. hilang dgn idea. hilang dgn pendirian diri. hilang tanpa pegangan. aku hilang segala-galanya. walaupun tak nmpak dgn mata kasar. tap, aku sendiri yang merasa dgn kehilangan itu. sehingga satu kondisi, aku mula tidak percaya dengan apa-apa.sumpah. aku hilang kepercayaan aku. astaga. humph.

i lost my faith. Oh, my God.

*******

when there's a will, there's a hope.

While i breathe,i hope.

i guess.

"Once you choose hope, anything's possible"

*******

mye :)

Angel

All the things Ive done before this

They dont mean a thing

And all the words spoken before this

Wont be said again

Suddenly so much of me has

No need to pretend

Cause there's nothin like the truth

To bring back to you

And everyone I've met before this

is Aint seen me with you

My Angels

You're the only one who knows what I go through

Sometime u feel it even more than me

And I dont know how I ever got by without you

Theres nothing like the truth

And Ive got nothin left to lose

And every night I thank the universe that I found you

And I dont have to wonder

What the world thinks about me

I know you're in my corner

You're always surrounding me

With your love
And if we all explode

See we would never know

But I just hope the pieces of my soul

Reach out to u to find

My Angels

(Angels - Robin Thicke)

"Insight is better than eyesight when it comes to seeing an angel."

footnote: life getting hard to explain in my own words. lyrics are meaningful. enjoy it, come feel it with me.

mye :)

speechless

sometimes not everything we could explain in words.

its better to leave just like this.just let myself to go through everything alone and the best is just let only God knows what is it and why it happen like this. speechless.

have faith, knowing tomorrow will hold the blessings of God.

mye :)

only God knows why

I've been sittin here

Tryin to find myself

I get behind myself

I need to rewind myself

Lookin for the payback

Listen for the playback

They say that every man bleeds just like me

And I feel like number one

Yet I'm last in line

I watch my youngest son

And it helps to pass the time

I take too many pills it helps to ease the pain

I made a couple of dollar bills, but still I feel the same

Everybody knows my name

They say it way out loud

A lot of folks fuck with me

It's hard to hang out in crowds

I guess that's the price you pay

To be some big shot like I am

Out strecthed hands and one night stands

Still I can't find love

And when your walls come tumbling downI will always be around
As it...

And when your walls come tumbling downI will always be around

People don't know about the things I say and do

They don't understand about the shit that I've been through

It's been so long since I've been home

I've been gone, I've been gone for way too long

Maybe I forgot all things I miss

Oh somehow

I know there's more to life than this

I said it too many times

And I still stand firm

You get what you put in

And people get what they deserve

Still I ain't seen mine

No I ain't seen mine

I've been giving just ain't been gettin

I've been walking that there line

So I think I'll keep a walking

With my head held high

I'll keep moving on

and

only God knows why

Only God knows why

Take me to the river edge

(Only God Knows Why - Kid Rock)

*memorable and meaningful song*

long-distance relationship

classy.

Entry title 'please don't cry'. i get it from my little sister, faraheen. thanks sis! not sure if you still remember those words that you gave me when in high school. i stil kept it till now. apesal, ttbe nk speaking ni? dem. ok, lets start all over again and ignore the intros. ok,entri tu mmg saje post selepas membelek diary tahun 2005. aku tulis balik dlm blog. meaningful kat aku bile aku tgh down in 'relationship' part. serious. if i'm down at other part, i never care it too much. i just let it all out and let it go. thats it. whenever comes to relationship, its complicated. seriously. its kinda need someone to talk about it and i relieve then. ive tried it once. that was last nite.

Just came to the right time, thanks to you. you know who you are. i'm just appreciate your thoughts. i'm okay now. ok, thats it. tak boleh lebih2. hehehe. back to the main, relationship. complicated especially long distance relationship. i admit last nite i was so depressed. 1.00 a.m called up my sister and talk about it. long distance relationship.

What is long distance relationship?

• by means its a intimate relationship that takes place when partners are separated by considerable distance.

Challengers on long distance relationship

• Communication can be more challenging due to reduced real-time feedback
• Due to the distance the other partner's behavior cannot be monitored so a higher degree of trust and security may be required
• Physical contact and sexual needs may not be satisfied regularly
• The possibility that the partners become lonely, bored or grow apart

How to build trust in long-distance relationship?

• Don’t neglect communication
• Set down some ground rules
• Express your feelings
• Don’t make assumptions

above are some several things that i google about LDR *long-distance-relationship*.actually i got lots more.but, malas nk bce n bla bla..wuetver. the main is Long-distance relationship. anyone who have feel it, then u know it. really.ok, back to basic. malay.saje post entri psl relationship ni.lagi2 long distance relationship.mmg byk cabaran. dulu aku pnah tgk org who makes long distance relationship.last2 aku yg LDR. aku tak tau la. apesal, lately ni mcm2 aku dgn b-s-t. *budak songkok tinggi* always got something to came out and arguing. at the end,i'll cry like baby. sob..sob..sob.. seriously. i'm sick of it. babe, i just want an appreciation and consideration. i want give and take. damn tired think about it. whole day makes me restless. eventho when i'm eating lunch, i doesnt feel anything. seriously. i'm restless.everything that i wrote is meaningful.i swear to God, everything comes from the heart. sincerely. hope you understand.ok?

babe. i just miss you damn much.

Notakaki: actually byk lagi nk tulis.tap, nampak gaye dah kilat and guruh.buatnye ade short-circuit.habes laptop gua. rosak, sape nk ganti?

please don't cry.

(please don't cry)

"cry cry

if you stumble into a mess

cry if you think it is best

there's no use to stop those tears

just let it out and release your fears

you can cry when things get tough

just cry,

no need to act tough

so what if you have puffy eyes and runny nose

you will feel a lot better and composed

coz you can cry but never quit

don't you ever claim defeat

take your time to sort things get cruel or on the days you feel awful

look for a place to listen to you soul

you find the strength you need to hold

its normal to feel sad

its humanity to cry

sometimes its not even hard to cry

trust your feelings

cry a little bit

but,

it doesnt mean you have to quit

its a private matter your heart and you

a sniffle sob..

whatever you do,

remember that you're not weak

or some kind of sentimental freak

coz you know you're not a fool.

to somehow loose your nerves and cool

the pain doesn't lost

the despair's while after a good cry

just you carry on and smile."

mye :)