awak. ya awak! . yang hujung tepi sekali tu. pakai cermin mata. ha, awak la. awak!.
sy sayang awak.
sgt.
tlg la faham. sy dah tak nak konflik macam ni lagi. sy tak nak macam-macam yang awak pk. pk bukan-bukan. sy tak suke sgt. just set in mind, wutever happen is just an obstacle in relationship. lagi-lagi i'm just more matured and few years old than you. maybe it takes time to understand each other. ok? just be patient as the time goes by. will you dear? i know that you take everything for granted. yes, youre still young.just to live and enjoy the life. but for love. please baby. dont ever dare to do that! awak jgn pk bukan-bukan. thanks for love me. but, it doesnt enough if you just say it, but appreciate it is the most wonderful thing on earth for me. i know that its hard to do. lelaki ada ego. i know that. but, appreciate love. will you? i am barely can't stand my tears everyday just to think about this all over again. Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition.
" Love sought is good, but given unsought, is better"
sorry la kalau ade yang bace entri kali ni akan kecik ati.tapi, bukan nak salahkan sape2.cume feeling ni macam da kurang. mmg la syg lagi, tapi entahlah. kalau die teruskan macam ni, aku akan buat like the relationship is just based on NAME. the reality its nothing. aku tak sanggup kene banyak kali macm ni, the same situation all over again. terseksa jiwa raga. kali ni aku betul2 berat hati, tak nak lepaskan segala-galanya lepas beberapa tahun ni. aku tak sampai hati. aku syg sepnuh hati mcm perasaan die kat aku dulu. 'syg sepenuh hati'. aku serius tensen. tgh tulis entri blog ni, tibe-tibe plak nak menangis, nasib officemate dpn ni tak perasan. *malu*
entahlah.aku syg lagi tapi kenape die lately ni different. atau aku yg semakin different? mane satu? tolonglah bagi petunjuk. aku byk bende nak pk lagi, nak hidup lagi, nak cari kerja lagi atau smbung blaja lagi. entahlah. aku rs macm nak pegi jauh-jauh. biarkan terseksa lagi mcm dulu. aku da tak sanggup and tahan lagi keadaan mcm ni. setiap masa pk, tak boleh nk fokus buat kerja. eventhough, im smile but inside im soooo painful.serius.
syg lagi ke?
p/s: syg gile! ok. tipu kalo tak syg!!
all american rejects
mase dtg malaysia, aku tak pegi. duit takde. tak dpt permit dari big boss. haish. T_T perasan sekarang? trimas pd AAR yang penat-penat buat lagu yang aku nak. wtf. layan jom.
I never thought that I was so blind
I can finally see the truth
It’s me for you
Tonight you can’t imagine that I’m by your side
Cuz it’s never gonna be the truth
Too far for you
But can you hear me say?
Don’t throw me away
And there’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow
I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but all I have is time
Our loves the perfect crime
I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me
Take everything that I know you’ll break
And I give my life away
So far for you
But can you hear me say
Don’t throw me away
There’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow
I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but all I have is time
Our loves the perfect crime
I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me
Tonight I’m weak
It’s just another day without you
That I can’t sleep
I gave the world away for you to
Hear me say
Don’t throw me away
There’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow
All I wanna do is touch you
I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but I all I have is time
Our loves the perfect crime
I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me
i'm sorry budak songkok tinggi. i'm just miss you too much. im just getting blind when you're too far from me in a long time.lame sgt tao! every weekend, ade je plan yang jadi halangan.too much obstacle. cewah.you tau kan, i will get very emo adn act diferently bile too long tak jumpe. which ppl say 'angau'.emm, i just can't stand the feeling anymore. i am sorry, f i just act too much. i just want you now. seriously~ :) *love*
i wanna touch you
p/s: over sgt ke? nak pegang-pegang ni? haram.bukan muhrim.eceh.
die tepon banyak kali. guna fon office. tapi, tak sempat angkat. sibuk kemas rumah. lepas da settle, tepon balik.
no.1 (tepon office)
me : hello
die: assalammualaikum, Al-wahida *xclear sgt*
me: wa'alaikumsalam..
die: sape ni
me: 'harry..i la ni
die: ok, tepon balik la.
komen: ok, maybe die bz or boss die kt tepi die kot.
no.2 (tepon handphone)
me: hello?
die: hello?
me: hye!
die: sape ni (boleh plak? xde dlm phonebook ke? sedey gila )
me: mye la!
die: oh ok,nanti tepon balik la.
komen: maybe bz lagi kot.boss still ade kt sblah kot.
no.3:
takde.dah malas. malam sikit la tepon.
bukan mengongkong ke ape.tapi, sebab die miscall byk.so, i wonder maybe he got something to talk about or ask me plus he's sgt la susah nk call or miscall unless he's got something goes up. that's why i'm very concern all the miscall or phone call. i caring ok? eh eh. i? biarlah.
just kecik ati je.bile die ckp dlm phone call tu macam tak kenal gf sndri. entah. boss ade ke? die ade ckp, boss takde arini. pastu, npe die macam tu? ade buat salah ke? kalau ade, bgtau la. kalau mcm ni. buat aku touching.seriously. kecik ati.
p/s: gf mane yg tak syg bf. *bodonye statement*
sebenarnya aku bukak external aku.tgk2 ade gmba bunga. bunga konvo n bunga kt kedai. dulu aku mmg tak suke bunga. anti bunga. yelah. konon-konon boyish. tapi, skang. ape sudah jadi? jadi minah bunga. brg-brg pun byk yg da kaler pink. T_T astaga. inikah maizura skang?
bunga?
pink?
next?? *wonder*
dress? *dem*
______________ (sila isi tempat kosong. TQ)
p/s: teringin gak pki dress, tapi kne kuruskan bdn dulu. kan. kan. kalau tak, nampak perut.hodoh.
lukis-lukis guna paint jek. zaman bila tah lukis ni. mase tgh bosan.
cantik x? colourful :)
p/s: cantik tengkorak dia. garisan senget-senget.malu btul.hodoh.
aku rs sgt pening kepala memikirkan msg yg dpt dr miza a.k.a bisneswoman dgn tagline *where health and beauty is combined* ecececeh. mesraaaa~ :)
ok. balik semula pd tajuk entri.
nak jadi perempuan yang lasak? lasak dr segi ape? msg dr miza agak menghantui pemikiran aku sampai terbawa-bawa ke tido n mimpi yang sgt mengarut. aku ingat mimpi tu tapi tak reti nak explain dan story. biarlah.
lagi beberapa jam nak ke interview, sempat lagi online n blog. nak meluahkan perasaan kt ayah kt rumah ni, die bz ke hulur ke hilir menjadi seorang surirumah yang berjaya. mengemas rumah. membasuh baju. good job ayah! hehe (aku bukan pemalas, tapi sbb nk prepare for interview jadi tak kisah lgsung psl rumah *alasan*)
interview kali ni aku tatau kenape nk berdebar sgt. bakal diinterview bsame2 dgn faiq a.k.a coursemate mase kt perlis dulu. the best psl msg from her is, the panel want the candidate for this position to be like more active, 'lasak' and 'kental' (ayat miza). obkos la, dah factory. takkan nak lembut2 dan mengada-ngada plak. kan? kan? tapi, sebab dah stay kt kl and the environment sume mcm high class and office, how to adapt dgn factory punye environment ni? pening aku! sumpah. awkward.
sedang bertungkus lumus membaca yang perlu psl factory ni. menyimpang jauh sikit dgn ape yang aku blaja dlu. seramik! blaja pun sket-sket je dulu. Tsk. T_T nk buat cmne ni. layan je la. google sane-sini. tulis notes. print cv. print notes. rase mcm student plak. rindu plak mase student.
bosan.google jap. 'menjadi seorang perempuan lasak'.
"bukan tidak boleh melakukannya, cuma agak terbatas. Dan saya juga tidak kata mahasiswa wanita tidak boleh melaksanakan tugasan seperti lelaki. Boleh...tapi terhad."
dgr tu.terhad.bukan tak boleh. so, maizura. you can do it! ok?!
p/s: teringat body builder pompuan. macam tu lasak ke kental? konpius.
hari kamis.tapi, rs mcm hari jumaat. heheh. supposedly dress like usual, err i mean formal la.but, today, i'm in jeans. mmg suke2 buat mcm office sndrik. *bodo*bodo* bukan sengaje. serius. sbb i'm going straight back to johore after 5.30 pm. i'm going home. YAY! ade interview kt kluang, thats why im going back home. ticket nak balik, gamble je la. kan? asalkan balik johor. *berharap*
testing.
pagi-pagi dah bukak blog.mentang2 internet free. *cube bersyukur.sambil menadah tangan* . ingat nk update and bebel macam-macam, tapi tiba-tiba otak mati. turn off. shut down. black-out. trus, delete entry and sambung buat keje *adeke?* bila sampai tengahari macam ni. matahari dah atas kepala.walaupun, berada dlm bangunan tinggi tingkat 21. tapi, hati ni merasakan matahari atas kepala. eh, ape merepek ni. ok.ok.cukup. sebenarnye, officemate tgh ganbatte buat blog. seronok tgk die and the blog. cute. die ckp ade satu website utk background blog ni. tiba-tiba terpikir that my blog is totally black and white. macam dull gile. so, after lepas usha and copy paste html dalam blog. inilah hasilnya. hanya buat dlm mase 5 minit sbb pusing kiri kanan make sure line clear *hope boss tak lalu.sbb da byk kali kantoi bukak fb and main game.buduh* cmne nk diserapkan kerja kalau perangai macam ni. pakai jeans, main fb. *geleng kepala.nasib yang malang*.entahlah.apelah nak jadi ni.
eh.eh.kene paksa berhenti ni. *hati yang paksa suruh stop*. ade job nak buat. nak study untuk interview lagi. harap-harap berjaya. dipermudahkan jalan untuk interview. amin~
p/s: nanti cerita psl interview tu.takut nak interview tapi tak sabar nak menghadapi. always pray for the best! ganbatte!
mari mencuci.
mencuci di istana budaya. malas nak tulis banyak-banyak. tgk movie die pun best gile. yang ni cuci the musical. speechless~ two thumbs up! awesome. best gile. ok. *seriously!* layan cuci the musical dengan yantea, alin (ketua program ;P) n wa. before the actual date that's 1 Nov, superb extra excited! yantea smpai mimpi-mimpi. alin msg sakan wonder what the best to wear on that date. me? pusing-pusing mines, "baju ape nk pakai ni" Tsk. sampai cmtu sekali. obses! the musical start around 3.15 pm, break 20 minutes and continue till 6.30 +-. lebih kurang la. after that, there's photo session and autograph or wutsoever. ramai gila.! eventho menahan lapa smpai termuntah-muntah (bukan kt IB,ok), but i guess it worth it!
this only few pictures caps at IB. there's lots more in the FB. hehe =P
