Thursday, December 30, 2010

mye 2010

hari hari berlalu tanpa disedari.rasa macam setiap hari membuang masa buat kerja yang sama.cuma sejak kebelakangan ni, badan tak berapa sihat. hidung tersumbat sana sini.perut tak berapa nk terima makanan, apa yang ditelan semua keluar balik.kepala sikit sikit nak berdenyut-denyut sampai mata pedih.hari hari berlalu dgn task kerja yang sama.hidup yang sama.tiada enhancement.tiada perubahan.tiada peningkatan.bosan.

itu cuma apa yang aku fikirkan yang berlaku dalam jangka masa terdekat.walhal sepanjang 2010 ni, macam-macam berlaku.terlalu banyak peningkatan.enhancement dan perubahan.cuma aku tidak perhatikan satu persatu yang berlaku.mungkin aku pandang sebelah mata segala yang berlaku.2010, banyak sangat bende yg terjadi.aku cuba untuk cerita apa yang telah berlaku dan apa yang aku ingat.aku cuba.ok.cuba.

2010.

Career.
my 1st official job as Assistant Manager Network Operation Enterprise 1 Banking 2 di Telekom Malaysia dan seterusnya menjadi Resident Engineer Maybank. Mana task kerja aku semakin mendalam dan bertambah bila work place aku is based on customer office.walaupun, job task still lebih kurang cuma have to balance colleagues n customer. Nak kene jage hati all party.Complicated but Alhamdulilah. setakat salah faham kecil-kecilan itu lumrah hidup.layan kan aje. itu baru pasal skop kerja, if pasal status kerja? masih lagi tergantung. redha je la. contract pon habih 31 dec 2010. just wait n see. insyaÁllah mungkin ada rezeki.doa banyak-banyak.

Wedding.

superb banyak wedding!! nah list!

  • Wedding my cousin Hafiz dgn wife org Terengganu, Marini.kes wedding yang ni menjadi bualan hangat di kampung dan rumah saudara maraku di seluruh Malaysia.ya! macam-macam hal.
  • wedding Nani & Ikhlas 3 April 2010 at Putrajaya.wedding yang dinanti.sedondon semua pakai merah and of course Nani dan Ikhlas is white.superb lawa, chantek dan hensem gitu. wedding kt Hall dan bende yang paling ingat is when a few guest include us yang tak dapat nk makan secara benar.(i mean makan banyak sket la..) sampai bantai makan food for the pengantin. haha.but, tak kesah pon pasal tu. the best is dapat jumpe KIPAS setelah lama tak jumpa and 1st time introduce KAMJ to KIPAS.
  • Wedding Mimi & Nudin 5 June 2010 at Besut Terengganu.Sadly this wedding tak dapat nk attend sebabkan hal kerja dan batasan cuti.But, they both look soo stunnning and currently Mimi is pregnant! Mommy to be!! Congratss!
  • wedding Pae & Husband 6 June 2010 at Johore.As Pae n Mimi wedding date is super close.Both seriously cannot make it.Pae & hubby look so chantek n hubby sangat hensem.Congrats to u both!
  • wedding Rohaidee & Nisa 20 June 2010 at KL.Both is my super friend masa practical at Hicom Engineering Sdn Bhd. Mrs Nisa now sudah jadi teacher and Rohaidee masih setia dgn Hicom.hehe. Totally unexpected both ni married, but Jodoh suma di tangan Tuhan. Wutever it is, Congratulations!!
  • Wedding Arifah & Husband 10 July 2010 at UPM Serdang.Attend this wedding at UPM with Adhel.Few 9903 also datang. This wedding is so-so, as understand that both of the family is very religious. So, sila faham. But still wedding is still great with blue colours and bila jumpa 9903 mmg seronok yáll. masih teringat conversation Nani Ikhlas and BuddyAmoure. ok, conversation orang dah kawin dan org yang berusaha mendapatkan anak which is mcm meremang bulu roma bila terdengar Ikhlas ckp bermacam-macam position dah buat and etc, Maka dgn itu, aku terus terïmagine..WTF! haha :D aww, malu. LOL

  • Wedding K.jihan & Ghazi 25 July 2010 at KL.K.jihan is my super close sister since Hicom Shah Alam 2008 until now.OMG.Their relationship luar dalam and everything semua dalam tangan.WOOT! Congrats kakak chantek dan now da preggy! Mommy to be!
  • Wedding Sarah & Fendi 25 September 2010 at Kota Tinggi Johor.My eldest sister wedding! the most grandis! of course anak sulung to ISmail & Rohaini. Very known in Kota tinggi. as daddy da retire from Pejabat Pendidikan KOta Tinggi. siapa yang tak kenal? wut a waste! Daddy was super happy dapat menantu!! Now, my sister Sarah is mommy to be!! and i'm becoming an Aunty!!
  • Wedding Zul & Umai 10 Oktober 2010 at Wangsa MAju.Zul was my friend since KMNS.Matriks N9.Of course i know him as satu kelas and all the history relationship with someone who i really know.Umai kenal as work in one company. Congrats to both of u!
  • Wedding Yana & Sharul 10 Oktober 2010 at KL.attend to their wedding with Alin. nasib sempat jumpe both of them, and a few Unimap's student. Hadi.LInda.Liza.Erin.Tarqi. yang lain-lain tak sempat.Ishk. but, currently Yana is preggy.Mommy to be! weee~
  • wedding Yanie & Husband 10 Oktober 2010. Of course tak dpt nk attend, kedah siot! for sure. plus cuti yg limited.just able to wish congrats for her wedding! and another one preggy! mommy to be!!
  • Wedding Sulaiman & Wife 13 November 2010. Leman is schoolmate masa sekolah rendah. Superb terkejut bila tau dia kawin. unfortunately tak dpt attend as ada hal sket. btw, congrats! ur wife looks stunning.currently, leman is becoming daddy!
  • Wedding Didi & Faliq @7 November 2010 at KOta Tinggi Johor.Ah! yang ni anak buah aku kawin. dah melangkah-langkah bendul budak ni dan terasa makcik ni tak kawin-kawin lagi.Didi still studying in France and Faliq is co-pilot MAS. Both of them yang selalu travelling and sgt susah nk stay rumah baru diorg at Cahaya SPk, Shah Alam. Congrats!
  • Wedding Nora & Izwan 11 December 2010 at KL.attend with Adhel. meet Jannah, Ain Razali, Ain Abdullah, Faten Fatanah. Nora's wedding kt KL is at her husband side. Kawin dgn Izwan, which is twins.SO, hoepfully baby twins born is high possibility. LOL :)

Relationship.

Masih dengan KAMJ.untuk tahun ke 3.OMG.we've been together for 3 years! Bermacam dugaan,salah faham.. itu semua standard berchenta. so,wut else. insyaállah. tahun 2011 dan 2012 akan ada peningkatan to another stage. InsyaAllah.doa-doa kan la utk kebahagian kami. Mye & KAMJ. Amin.
Family.
Alhamdulilah.pertambahan ahli keluarga.my 1st brother in law.insyaällah, bakal anak sedara akan ada dalam tahun 2011.moga-moga sihat walafiat ibu dan anaknya.Amin! bila tah akk aku yg sorg tu nk kawin, if die lambat konpem aku lmbat gila. haha.ni gelojoh sgt nk kawin nape? mabuk? haha.

SGF.

alhamdulilah.setelah agak lame tak nk contact sana sini, akhirnya Trip to Bandung bulan July pencetus segala-galanya.jumpe juga SGF yang setelah sekian lama tak jmpe.but, still missing Wajihan and Azeela. ni dua ni paling lame tak jmpe. hehe. SGF.KipasSusahMati.SpasticoRomanio.wutever the name is, sayang korang sampai bila-bila.Amin.

.....

banyak lagi yang nak cerita of what had happen in the past 2010.from the good side and the bad side,suma banyak.bad side? takkan nk cerita. biarjelah simpan dalam hati dan let everything happened is a lesson.lesson ok? ingat satu pengajaran dan hopefully i'm not doing the same things and mistake whole over again. Amin. However, Thank you to God for everything that happened in my past life just makes me stonger and more matured.matured ke? sort of la. bukan totally matured, but in a few things ok la. wutever happened, life must goes on kan? berharap apa yang berlaku menjadi satu sejarah dan hidup yang seterusnya biarlah menjadi satu chapter yang baru.Insyaällah.


Oh God, please bless me in 2011.

Harimau Malaya

congrats harimau malaya

sumpah tak pernah nk fanatik dgn bola.kalau akak ayah ajak tgk bola. last-last bola yg tengok aku.tapi, kali ni. AFF Suzuki Cup 2010 buat hati aku berdebar-debar, tangan mengigil setiap kali tgk game. mula-mula mmg sakit jiwa tgk kene belasah 5 -1 dgn Indonesia, but at the end meet up to final and Malaysia Victory! wee. bila tgk game bola, mesti sakit hati.bukan aku yg sakit hati, kawan-kawan aku. bila start game je, hati berdebar-debar, tangan mengigil-gigil tak tentu pasal, otak dah tak keruan. pelik.macam aku yang dalam game. itu baru tgk game dr jauh, cuba kalao aku pegi stadium haritu. mau tak duduk diam. HAHA. ah, cukup cita pasal tu. yang penting sekarang ni, Malaysia Youth Team mmg superb. repeat Youth ok. mmg team Malaysia semua muda-muda. cuma kali ni game, Twins tu takde. tau kan sape..

kalau nk ulas balik whole game Malaysia dr game dekat BUkit Jalil and Stadium Gelora BUng karno sampai ke sudah tak habis and aku bukan reti nk mengulas game-game bola ni.tapi, yang penting. The legendary 10 Late Mohktar dahari is coming back. Thank you to Safee Sali. seriously, he is awesome. but, the most is Malaysian Keeper Khairul fahmi (he's taken yáll) sumpah tatau nk cakap camne how good is he. Else is of course, Shahrul Idlan and Kuna. Striker terbaek. and the other Mohamad Ashari Shamsudin, pemain malu tapi garang di padang. wah!! cutenye! wutever it is, whole player is the best. Amirul hadi, and the other Man. u guys terbaek la! haha. RajaGobal, Malaysia Coach yang superb terer and best! haha. makin tulis, rasa mcm makin poyo. tapi, itu hakikat. sangat berbangga dgn team bola Malaysia. speechless sampai mengarut.OMG! saya sumpah suka gila Malaysia menang. Alhamdulilah!!!


Thank you to Malaysian team.
Thank you for the pride.
Proud to be Malaysian.

Malaysia!!

RajaGoBal (Malaysia Coach) vs Andy Darusalam ( Pengurus Indonesia)


trio faveret Malaysian. Norshahrul Idlan talaha. Safiq Rahim. Safee Sali.

victory!

Malaysia: Official Champion Suzuki AFF Cup 2010. nampak tak amirul hadi, OMG! :)

Safee sali. The Becoming Legendary No 10 after Late Mokhtar Dahari.





p/s: the best ending for 2010!



Tuesday, December 28, 2010

angel


angel.

need an angel.

mama.

papa.

sarah.

surya.

KAMJ.

SGF.


itu semua angel.family of course.KAMJ in future husband will be my super Angel.SGF, yes! mmg diri ni sedar yang tak selalu join dgn mereka.bukan tak nak.bukan susah tak de transport itu alasan.bukan. cuma diri ni tak bersiap,tak bersedia macam lain-lain. kadang-kadang rasa lost,and badly need SGF. tapi, tak boleh. sumpah SGF sayang gila kt korang. sorry sgt-sgt kalau tak dpt join. the latest is mase u ol pegi Rasta( if not mistaken) mase tu tak dpt join, ade hal. ishk! i need my own life!(eh, xyah nk rebel tak pasal-pasal) em,actually. life ada a few problem. being protected by someone. tak suka. tapi terpaksa.ok, abaikan. and again, malas nk narrate more pasal itu. somehow boleh jadi kontroversi.


another angel yang senyap-senyap tapi setia sebagai adik! oh, adik! kau sorg je adik aku yang aku sayang. sumpah sayang! mmg dah lame x buzz kau. adik? sape? haha.adik, sorry la dah lame x buzz ko.aku sumpah busy. KAMJ pon aku jarang text n call, apetah lagi kau. hehe.sorry adik. next year lepak eh! ko pegi morib eh. best ah! hitam legam! wut ever u do, just take care of urself ok?


actually all ppl around me is my angel.as for now, foremost is my aunt n my kezen with baby twins.the top angel.as aku duduk dgn diorg, half of my life is being with them. balik keje lambat and wutsoever, they would understand.hopefully. friends,colleagous Vads,Customer Maybank would be my angel.tapi, angel masa office hour je la. kan? kan? haha.


its 28th Dec already.lagi 3 hari end of 2010. and also 29th Dec, esok bola final.Malaysia Vs Indonesia.MALAYSIA mesti menang!


p/s:sedey nak tinggal 2010.banyak sangat bende jadi.





what if


What if?
What if I'm the one for you?
And you're the one for me?
What if...

If you are the one
Then us meeting here is fate
Future with a dog named Ben
Buy a house with a fireplace
This is the first I've seen your face
But there a chance we are soulmates
I know that this might sound crazy
You don't know my name


But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say d..

Baby, what if
We all can say ...
Baby, what if
What if


Picture me on one knee
With the perfect diamond ring
We just met, but if you say "yes"
We'd have our wedding on the beach
It could happen, raise three kids
And grow old so happily
I know this may sound crazy
Cuz you don't know my name
But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say ....
Baby, what if
We all can say ...
Baby, what if


Don't know what tomorrow brings
But i'm still hoping
That you are the one for me
Oh and what if I had you and what if you had me and
Baby, what's the reason we can't fall in love?

What if
What if
What if

what if KAMJ is the one. oh ♥


Friday, December 24, 2010

kembali ke pangkal jalan

sekian lama tak berblog.banyak bende nak cerita.tak kesah siapa nak baca.ini cuma luahan hati.kalau simpan lama-lama mmg busuk.sejak-menjak ni, perangai menjadi-jadi.memang salah sendiri.siape suruh layan. padan muka.ok.cukup.

manusia dalam dunia ini macam-macam.tak boleh nk expect.orang yang kita sangka baik, rupenye ada misi tersendiri untuk menjahanamkan orang lain.orang yang kita sangka da berubah, rupenye diam-diam dia buat balik perangai lama.kadang-kadang malas nk cakap org lain, tengok dulu diri sndri ni.sibuk hal orang lain, sendiri yang tak terjaga.pening la nak buat ayat ni.sumpah. kalau statement kluar ni terlalu direct, mungkin aku disaman kurang-kurang 5 juta. nak mampos? mane nak cari duet, ni kawin pon terkiput-kiput kumpul duet. haish. ok.cukup. setiap manusia dalam dunia ini punya sendiri sejarah silam. tak kesah la.baik, hitam, buruk atau baik. anggap semua yang dah berlaku tu sebagai satu pengajaran. itu utk tuan punya badan. tapi, tanggapan orang lain tak boleh paksa. orang lain yg tau pasal kisah silam kita tu ada certain yg boleh terima, ada yang tak boleh terima.so, jangan simply cerita what already happen for the past 10 years back.seriously.nak cakap aku pnah kene ke tak, entah la. once story a few then goes it becomes totally complicated and plus i'm soo regret.some ppl boleh accept of what we are but some of them yang sgt tak boleh accept.maybe pemikiran macam, once buat salah forever will be. susah nk tgk orang tu betul2 back to normal n insaf.seriously susah. itu pemikiran a certain ppl, and a half lagi yang keep positive dgn harapan that once the ppl tu berubah is good and hopefully it last longer sampai bila-bila. InsyaÁllah.

baru 10% je luahan perasaan.hati ni masih berdebar-debar.tatau pasal apa.buat salah? mungkin.tensen? maybe la.

"Living with tensions at home or involving family elewhere is never easy. But, its being complicated by the eclipses, earlier this week or early Jan. Ironically, the resulting shake-up could lead to exactly changes that have been needed to resolved problems you thought you'd just have to live with"

statement tu copy dr newspaper The Sun today( 24th Dec). everyday aku akan amik paper free then read the Zodiac as utk aku is Libra.bukan percaya dgn bende tahyul ni, but coincidently the statement is totally right, the right thing happen at the right time. seriously.mungkin itu sudah tersurat oleh Tuhan.sudah ditentukan.banyak sangat bende aku serabut dalam kepala ini. tak mampu nak cerita pada siapa-siapa of what had actually happen in the head and in the heart.keje? ya! love? ya! forbidden love? family? No.they just fine! financial? ya! OMG. camne nk handle suma ni.seriously serabut kepala.and the most is aku nk puaskan hati semua org! camne??

love and the forbidden love.
i seriously in love with KAMJ. but, my heart was distract by someone. which someone is belong to someone else. memang tak akan la dgn someone tu, but that someone is totally merimaskan! eh, u. u tu ada komitmen lain. so, concentrate je la.tak yah nk focus kt aku. ko mmg takkan dpt cus i'm belong to KAMJ.actually this subject yang kacau aku lately ni. malas nk narrate banyak kang kontroversi sbb that guy bukan single as i meantion before he belong to someone else. Wutever.

family.
takde masalah.ok je.cuma aku je sorok hal-hal sendiri dgn mereka, sbb xnak diorg susah hati.lagi-lagi mak dan ayah.mak boleh pengsan kalau aku yg jauh ni ada masalah.ayah pon sama.silap-silap boleh melalak.pasal family, is ok and even happy when my sister is pregnant! weeeee. auntie zura wannabe! yippie

financial.
kalau cakap pasal kewangan, bukan aku je yang ada.rasanya setiap manusia atas muka bumi akan alami masalah ni.even budak kecik pon akan terasa bila nak beli macam-macam masa sekolah, tapi duet blanje mak bagi siket je.konflik.as for me, financial mmg senak perut. macam-macam nak bayar.nasib duet sewa ruma n tak ada kereta lagi.fuh.cuma komitmen ke arah masa hadapan itu terlalu focus, smpai sekarang punya saving pon senak. haish. tak apa la. ada rezeki ada la.insyaÁllah.

kembali ke pangkal jalan.
itu misi dan tujuan hidup.setiap apa yang sudah berlaku tak kira buruk teruk atau tragis, mesti kembali ke pangkal jalan.beruntung dilahirkan seorang umat Islam. Tuhan bagi peluang. Taubat Nasuha. InsyaAllah.berusaha mendekatkan diri dgn Tuhan.walau apa yang berlaku.aku masih ada keluarga, kawan-kawan SGF dan BF. aku masih berpegang dgn prinsip Islam. masih sujud kepada Tuhan.Alhamdulillah.mungkin apa yang berlaku pada aku itu semua hanya dugaan dalam hidup, pengajaran dengan apa yang aku dah lakukan. ya, Allah. berikanlah petunjuk. Terima Kasih BF, SGF dan Family to brigthen up my life.

p/s:
2010 dah nak berakhir, buka buku baru! 2011..here i come!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

hal november

fuh, da masuk disember dah.bulan 12. the end of the year.blog pon kosong je. bukan malas, cuma busy dgn kesibukan duniawi. al-maklumlah, kerja. layankan aje. tak sempat nk blogging sana-sini.


cerita bulan lepas.perlu x? perlu kut. sekadar meluahkan perasaan di hati, kalau dipendam nanti jadi busuk.


cerita hal luar dari kerja.


mula cerita dengan kaki yang sakit, selesai x-ray. memang dislocate. patutlah kembung je little toe tu. pasal little toe, bantai MC 2 hari. mmg menusuk hati utk rehat-rehat.bila MC lama, mmg konpem balik hometown la. balik sana dgn harapan dapat claim birthday present, yes! dapat gak. tenkiu for the bag! haha.padehal paksa suh beli. nasib bag utk kerja je. hahaha. mcm oldies, tapi OK la. then, goes to Aidiladha on 17 Nov. balik Bandar Putra Mahkota,Bangi. ( bangi ke?) biarkan. melepak-lepak di rumah sepupuku dgn budak kecik. The twins went to daddy's side at Selayang. that weekends, going back johor lagi! for my Sister wedding at Segamat pulak. kawin lagi. aku pulak jadi frontline kene pegang bunga paha. sedondon kaler dgn bunga. mcm macam dem. tapi, layankan aje. actually masa wedding, xde arah tujuan. hati sekadar nak pegi cukupkan syarat. hmm, entah la. bila pk balik.. bila lagi turn aku? mmg lmbat lagi kut. bila excited nak kawin, si-dia tak layan. kali ni kalau dia excited, aku malas nk layan. hahah. lepas segamat, pegi KL.melepak-lepak di rumah mak long.next weekends tu pulak, anak buah aku kawin. ulang, anak buah. actually,aku dah ada cucu sedara siap! LOL mmg menusuk hati semakin tua.pening aku. wedding Nadia & Faliq. insyaállah nnti attach gmbar hasil exploitasi camera abg ipar yg seronok. HAHA. mmg terbaek. theh, early dec family comes to KL. actually attend wedding Nadia & Faliq, for Faliq side at Shah ALam. but, as unable to attend the wedding. just attend housewarming at Cahaya Spk, Shah ALam. the house is superb lawa. sgt kagum sampai tak sempat nk snap gambar. then, tempat wajib IKEA!! 1st trip, pegi dgn little twins and then second time just family. Then, baru rasa lega dapat focus on shopping. hehe. my family just love IKEA. wee! me too!!! my sister sarah dekat USM, Penang for examination! kesian Fendi a.k.a abg ipar keseorangan. ishk.ishk :)


cerita hal kerja dan sewaktu dengannya.


tak nafikan. kerja lately ni macam haram. buat kerja macam nk tak nak je. entah la. apsal.takde focus.asyik distract aje. aku pon tak paham.bukan tak paham dgn kerja, tapi tak paham kenape aku tak mampu nk focus. kehadiran 'orang' yang buat aku tak mmpu nk focus kerja, asyik nk focus 'dia'aje. ingat aku bini die ke? LOL. kerja macam melepaskan batuk di tangga. bukan hati ni tak nak buat, mmg nk buat. tapi, sebabkan jaga hati 'org' tu. smpai kerja kita terjejas. datang kerja pon macam xdtg. tiba-tiba MC. tiba-tiba EL. tiba-tiba half day. banyak chantik! kdg-kdg dapat rasa, officemate macam hangin. tapi, mintak maaf sgt! saya tak bermaksud nk buat kerja macam sampah.. tapi, keadaan tak mengizinkan. keadaan yang memaksa. lepas kejadian ini dah selesai, nak focus kerja. nak buat all out! my promise! sakit hati sangat dgn 'org' tu, tapi hati ni sayang juga.bukan sayang lebih-lebih, anggap macam teman tapi mesra je. 'org' tu hak milik org lain, dan tak sanggup nk kacau. benci tapi sayang. entahla. hati ni milik orang lain. tapi, tatau kenapa jadi begini. statement macam perempuan jahat? entah. bila kita dalam keadaan n situasi macam ni, then u'll know how i feel.u just have someone that closest and care to u when our loved ones is sooo far away from us, but u know that someone is belong to someone else. argh! u just cannot avoid from everything! harini, berusaha utk stabilkan keadaan kerja, rumah dan kerohanian agama. ya Allah, berikanlah hamba-Mu ini petunjuk ke jalan yang benar! kuatkanlah hatiku dan imanku. Amin!

bulan disember, last month of contract staff. jangan ingat aku permanent lagi. contract setahun. entah bulan ni ape cerita. sambung contract atau permanent. eventho, bos propose to be permanent tapi, aku masih tak berharap sangat sebab all ppl here know that company is freezing of everything. leasing staff, contract staff. semua jadi mangsa. haish. berdoa je la dgn nasib. insyaÁllah ada lah nanti rezeki. Amin.

p/s: back to the roots, i still in love with KAMJ.